I have a few authors on my LJ list (people I’m going to move over here soon). I read their journals and I get this tingle in my stomach. Slightly sick, slightly scared, very excited, flip-flopping between being highly inspired and highly discouraged.
I want to be an author so badly I can taste it, but I let FEAR get in my way. I let the fear of success rule me. What if I can’t come up with a decent book? What if I get rejected nine million times? What if I make a bestseller?
What if I make it? What if my dreams come true?
I want this. I have to work for it, and it’s work I enjoy. I walk into the book store and I see all the books and think that someday, mine WILL be on that shelf. Not turned sideways either, but front displayed so everyone can see my cover. So everyone can buy it. Read it, enjoy it.
I’m starting this journal to keep track of my progress. To have some accountability. To inspire myself and for you guys to hopefully inspire me. I may post writing samples here, I’ll post the process. My feelings. I’m going to be frank and to the point.
Add me if you’d like. Keep me going, keep pushing me to do my best. To follow my dreams… to SUCCEED!
(Originally published at Anywhere Is…)