Okay, so 299 is still a pretty big number, but when I checked the counter today and it said 299 days until your wedding, I panicked. Just a little. Not because I don’t want to marry Adam, but because of all the PLANNING I have not done recently. So what did I do? I hopped over to theknot.com to check on the planner. Now I am down to 168 things I need to do. Most of it needs to wait until I get some extra cash. And I have not tried on one dress yet. For some reason, the wedding still seemed so far away, but seeing that first number go from a 3 to a 2 is kind of showing me that time is indeed moving. Pretty soon, serious planning will have to take place. I have no idea what that means, but eeek.

Adam hung out with Aidan over the holidays, and that was a really fun, special time. All Adam had to do was play Alpha Butt for Aidan to warm up to him, but Aidan had been warm to him anyway, and he gave Adam a hug the second he walked in the door. They played together very well, and Adam has a gentle way with Aidan that even I can’t master completely. I don’t know if it still kind of makes Adam nervous, the prospect of being a step-father, but I think he’s going to be a great one. It helps that Aidan’s such a great kid.

So, on the one hand, it seems like AGES and AGES until the wedding. I’m ready to settle into life with Adam. I’m ready to not be alone all the time. I mean, it can’t be healthy, how much I like being by myself. I often forget how nice it is to have someone around just to make random observations with, watch TV with, or to even bring me a cup of tea.

But on the other hand, in terms of planning, it seems like it’ll be here in a flash, and I’m not doing a damn thing about it. Eloping sometimes sounds like such a great idea, but I’m not selfish enough to do that, not when there are two families plus lots of friends who want to be there for when Adam and I tie the knot.

So, I shall prevail in the planning. Whenever I actually resume planning. Which will be soon… I think.

(Originally published at Anywhere Is…)