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To Dogs! No, Benny, to you.

/ adam, life, weekend

After yesterday’s emo crap (which is now locked), Aidan and I went up to Aurora to visit my mommy. I hadn’t been up there since August because my car needed some maintenance. The car is maintained, so I drove up. It was nice. We had a nice long chat, and Aidan got spoiled, and Mommy ordered pizza and wings from Pizza Slut for us all to enjoy. I also got to soak up a bit of the America’s Next Top Model marathon on MTV and lots of Thanksgiving shows on Food Network. Sometimes it’s nice to watch cable. I haven’t had it in so long.

Aidan’s with her for the week, coming back next Sunday. He’s so cute, and he loves his grandmommy. But he loves me too, he says it to me sooo much.

I also did shit tons of laundry. Now I have clean towels and sheets and lots and lots of clean underwear.

The drive wasn’t too bad, either, both ways. Today it was rainy which was a little bit annoying, but not really. I blasted the RENT soundtrack for most of the way, then switched to my autumn mix, which includes the Carrie Underwood song Before He Cheats, which is a fun song to sing.

My mom made me some roasted chicken and dressing to bring back, as I won’t be with her for Thanksgiving this year. That’ll be my taste of her holiday food.

I’ll have it all eaten by Wednesday.

And… and… I’m just too excited because my of awesome fiancé. 🙂 🙂 🙂 Gosh, I have finally snapped out of this damn funk I’ve been in all week thanks to him. More details soon. Eeek! I am so excited now. December’s going to be so busy for me, and I can’t wait. It’s always been my favorite month. Must have something to do with it having my birthday, and Aidan’s birthday, and Christmas, and New Years, and all that good stuff. It’s also the only month I don’t mind when it snows (unless the snow/ice/cold interferes with my travel plans).

So now that I have tons of things to look forward to, it’s going to make work easier, and it’ll make waiting for the big move easier, too.

See ya.

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Hard Day

/ adam, life, sad

I’m having a hard time today.

The last time I saw Adam was September 17th. I won’t see him again until the middle of November. That’s three weeks away.

October is always rough month, simply because he’s so busy with the Weird Chicago tours. He’s working every weekend, plenty of days, and week nights as well. Not only is October long by virtue of being a five-Monday month this year, (and having its normal 31 days), but not seeing your fiancé for so long is hard.

Thank GOD tomorrow is the last day.

It’s hard because I’ve gone so long without seeing him, and to think I have so much more longer to go… *sigh*

It’s hard not to get angry at TIME, as it creeps by during the work day/work week, and it crawls when I’m waiting to see Adam… and then when the weekend FINALLY gets here, the time speeds up and flashes by. The weekend, or week, or whatever, is gone in a flash, and it’s back to the waiting. Always with the waiting.

This won’t be the longest I’ve gone without seeing him. Earlier this year, I went from not seeing him from February 18th to May 2nd. That doesn’t make it any easier, though. And it makes planning for the wedding way more challenging than it already is.

The goodbyes are getting old. The tears in the airport. It’s getting harder and harder to tolerate them now, and there are still several months of this ahead. It’s hard not to get jealous of the couples who get to be together all the time. It’s hard not to be angry at circumstances, at life, at the restrictions which are keeping me here.

This long distance stuff…I am SO OVER it. 🙁

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Talking Marriage

/ adam, marriage, ronni

Today, I stumbled across an article titled Ten Things to Consider Before Getting Married. Lots of food for thought.

I forwarded the article to Adam and it opened up a nice dialogue of some of our expectations, habits, compromises we’ll have to make, etc. It was good. We found that we’re pretty much in alignment with everything.

If I haven’t learned anything else from before, I did learn that communication is SO very important. Sure, people say that all the time, but it’s really true. The thing is, I’m very non-confrontational. If someone does something and I get upset by it, I find it hard to go to the person and say “Hey, it really bugged me when you did blah blah blah.” But I’ve found that when I suck it up and say something, a few things happen.

1. He gets a chance to explain what he meant or why he said it or whatever.
2. I get to realize that it probably wasn’t as bad as I thought it was.
3. The air is cleared.

I’m not carrying around this hidden resentment and bitterness, everything is cleared up, and we can move on. In the past, I used to hold stuff in, let it fester, and then something small would push me over the edge and I would shut down. I am terrible with The Silent Treatment. It is so much easier (at least, right away) to shut down and stew. But these days, I force myself out of my comfort zone and actually TALK about whatever is bothering me. It’s so much better for both of us this way. And in the long run, a lot easier than letting stuff build up.

The article talks about “plans,” and he outlines the basics for starting a conversation about 1-, 3-, 6-, and 9-year plans. Those things cover meatier topics, but I think we can manage it. 🙂 I *LIKE* to talk about relationship-related stuff. And wedding stuff. And romantic stuff.

‘Til next time!

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Squeee!

/ adam, dork, ronni, yay

:)

Adam and I are totally getting married!

Wheeeee!

(Originally published at Anywhere Is…)

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Announcement!

/ adam, happy, life, pictures, ronni, wedding, yay

So Happy Together Those of you who read my Facebook and those of you who are also friends with adamselzer already know. But I thought I’d post here anyway, because not everyone here reads Facebook or Adam’s LJ.

Thursday morning started as any typical day. I knew it was payday, so I’d be getting groceries after work, possibly stopping by Borders (I had a 25% off coupon), and maybe the library. I also knew I had a weird day ahead, because I had two meetings scheduled, one which was supposed to be three hours.

I’m not a big fan of meetings. It’s just hard for me to sit still that long and focus. I am also not a big fan of the room the meetings are typically held in, as it’s usually balls-freezing cold in there! Honestly, I take my electric heater in there to blow on my feet because it’s that cold. (For the record, I also have the thing blowing on me all day at work because it’s so cold there. It can be 97 degrees outside and I’ll be inside shivering in front of the heater). Anyway, the meeting actually turned out to be interesting, and I got to leave after 90 minutes anyway. YAY.

I went back to my desk and checked email. Adam had written and talked about getting me out to Chicago again soon. I rememebered I had a free SW flight that I was planning on using when he got his wisdom teeth out, but he said he won’t be doing that for a while so to use it for a visit. I started looking for seats and flights, and imagine my surprise when I found one available THAT EVENING. I called him, got the green light, went home for lunch to pack, came back to work, finished out the work day and at quitting time, burst out of the office, got to the airport, and was on the 4:55pm plane to Chicago.

Oh WHAT!!!

So I’m here now. Total last-minute, unexpected trip. We ate dinner at Pie-Eyed, hung out with some friends at Ambrosia Cafe (I found raspberry M&Ms at the 7-11 on the same block. They taste like Christmas), and then Adam and I went to Margie’s Candies, which is an old-fashioned candy shop and ice cream parlor. I couldn’t understand why he was so keen on going there, but as I hadn’t been in over a year and had been kind of craving it (despite being stuffed from eating junk food all evening). We shared a chocolate phosphate, he told me a beautiful story about his great-grandparents which ended with “so this is the ring he gave her….”

I freaked out. In a good way, of course.

For the record, this is the ring his great-grandfather gave his great-grandmother in 1924(ish). The ring that Adam gave me Thursday night:

So, I woke up Thursday morning, expecting a pretty typical day. I went to bed Thursday evening in Chicago, and engaged.

OMG WOW.

A year ago, I was saying I’d never do the marriage thing again. Well, I guess it just goes to show that I didn’t know what the hell I was talking about. Not to say that I don’t get scared sometimes, just because that’s my nature. When I’m not worrying about what other people will think, and not worried about my own foolishness and self-sabotage tendencies, I relax and I’m happy. I am happy. 😀

I was hesitant to post it here because I haven’t yet told my mother or told some other people who should probably not learn of this through LJ, but my mom doesn’t have Internet at the moment and the other people won’t have Internet until Monday. So I’ve got time. 🙂

Cheers!

P.S. Jen Hathy, the person who takes the best photos of Adam ever, is posting pix on her DeviantArt site. Get there from here: saintscribble, and here’s the link to her DeviantArt site: http://morethannothing.deviantart.com/

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