Month: November 2006

The End of Another Weekend

I’m tired. The 1/2 Tylenol PM is starting to kick in. But my stomach is also awake and demanding food. How does one go about satisfying both needs?

Had a pretty relaxing weekend. Got to hang out with Libby and her friend last night. Good times. Made MY first ever Crock-pot meal. Okay, so I cheated and used one of those Banquet meals–the herb chicken and rice. Well. When I opened the bag and saw all the onions, I PANICKED. I am not an onion fan, as you all should know. But I dumped them all in, figuring, well, after cooking for 10 hours, those things should be non-existent.

I was right! After the rice cooked, I couldn’t even see the onions, let alone taste them. It was soooo yummy, too. I have a bit left for lunch tomorrow, I’m excited about that. Although I can’t seem to find my lunchbox at the moment…

Yesterday was spent playing with Aidan, napping, reading, smelling the Crock-pot make WONDERFUL food, and then having my friends over. It was a good Saturday. I also managed to write a letter, so wlotus, watch your mailbox. πŸ™‚

Anyone else interested in exchanging real letters? Amy (verytruly) is also really into slams. I like to fill them out, but making them is another story. I’m so freakin’ lazy these days, and not very creative anymore. I spend my free time reading and journaling and sleeping. Like today. I took a three hour nap.

So much going on in my life right now. Can’t write about it yet. Well, I can, but I choose not to at the moment. Just keep sending good thoughts to me, okay? The main thing is that I can’t believe how quickly time is going by. It’s already fewer than twenty days until Thanksgiving, and then after that, Christmas will be on its way. I haven’t even begun to seriously plan about shopping–I only know a few things I’m getting. Other than that, no clue.

I keep hearing from people at McGraw-Hill who tell me they miss me. That makes me feel good because I miss them, too. But except for some drama issues from last month, ZB is working out well for me. The reading novels when I am not busy is really a good benefit! I have a stack on my desk for tomorrow if I don’t get any work in, which I SHOULD, because Handwriting is really picking up, YAY. I’ve also been moved to doing some 2Rs on the LACE guides, and that’s a LOT of fun. Lots more things to mark up! πŸ™‚ Finals are easy, 2Rs are a challenge, which I like. YAY for proofreading.

Mmm, I think the sleeping pill is winning over the hunger. But I might have a snack anyway. Or a “smack,” as Asher from The Giver says. πŸ™‚

G’night!

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There are some things I expected to happen, but still hurt a bit.
People shunning me because of the choices I’ve made.
“Friends” who don’t want to speak to me or him because they’re afraid we’ll somehow “taint” them and their “perfect little Christian” relationships.

Then there are the wonderful surprises.
Unconditional love from family members, regardless of the circumstances.
Unconditional love and support from friends all over.
The ocassional feelings of peace that wash over me.

Then there are the unexpected painful things.
Crying over what should have been but will never be.
Guilt for taking charge of my own life.
Fear over what will happen.
Denial that this is my life now, and that I chose it.

This whole thing is a mixed bag of feelings. Relief, pain, hurt, shame, disappointment, fear, happiness, peace, doubt, excitement, guilt, surrealness.

But I will go on. And it’ll be okay.

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