I’m Still Up

/ church, recap

I’m tired as all bananas, but I can’t sleep. Well, I’m sure I could if I lay down. I have a busy day tomorrow today and I should be getting some rest.

7am – get up
8am – drop off car at car place
830am – Bob Evans with Tami
10am-2pm – Grove Leadership Advance Pt 2
230pm-?? – NAP

I am supposed to hang with Chad and Christy sometime tomomorrow today as well, and I need to go shopping for some sunglasses and film for Vegas, and I STILL HAVE TO PACK. Oh, and call Mommy too. Busy, busy. And I’m still up.

Leadership Advance Pt 1 was great. Lots of ideas, lots of prayer. Lots of great things with the ministry. And of course, connecting with my friends. That’s one of my favorite parts. Oh yes, everyone send a huge shoutout to Tami. My girl got a new job at Nationwide. And she’s rejoining our small group. Good times will abound. Perhaps more cinnamon eating tricks. (NOOO yells swankivy)

Anyway… back to the Advance. It was really nice. We did some worship, some brainstorming, some praying and observing and learning. There was pizza for dinner and cookies and milk for dessert. Mmmm. 🙂

I’m looking forward to part 2.

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Gurgle

/ life, sad

I decided I wanted something a bit different for my LJ. It’s still one of their layouts (cause I’m lazy like that), but I like it okay.

Got my 3rd job rejection today. I’m doing really well, aren’t I? No wonder people give up on job searches. It’s not worth it when I’m not even getting INTERVIEWS. Bah. I must face it. I’m stuck. And I suck. I’ll never be good enough to anyone to move on, so I’ll be here, doing this forever. What a depressing thought.

What is it with everyone wanting to be fulfilled by their jobs anyway? I’m sure those working the same job for 50 years fashioning rivets weren’t fulfilled. They didn’t make their careers/jobs their identity. They did what they had to do to get food on the table. I hate thinking that I have to resort to that. I spend SO MUCH TIME at work, is it fair that I have to feel worthless 95% of the time? I just have to try not to be jealous of those who love their jobs and who get paid at least twice as much as I do to do something they LOVE. Why is it this way? I have a college degree, and yet, I’m being told I’m not talented enough for jobs that require only high school diplomas. How does this make sense? I have years and years of experience, but there are these jerks who have better credentials than me jumping in and pushing me out, and it’s so competitive out there. I picked the wrong dang major in college and totally screwed myself. Now, I’m no one special. I don’t stand out. So, why should I even try anymore?

It smells like old pizza on our floor because people don’t believe in picking up after themselves. I mean, for goodness sake, the pizza was here on Wednesday. Get with it folks. Gross.

Oh yeah, I forgot one more crappy thing that happened. My favorite sunglasses broke. Luckily, not the sexy glasses. No, those I just can’t find. But my driving ones are broken. I’m fortunate it’s been overcast the past few days.

I’m looking forward to Vegas. Now that it’s really close, I’m getting excited. I need to get away. I’ve been a right bitch the past few days and I’ve been taking it all out on Chris. 🙁 I just need to… regroup or something.

Hopefully, the retreat advance tonight will get me focused on something other than my patheticness. Okay, I know those of you lovely people commented and told me that I’m NOT pathetic, and maybe I believe this deep down. But it’s those little things again. Those little fiery darts that are piercing me and burning away a little more at my confidence each day. And I’m going to say “little” a few more time to be really annoying.

little little little little little

Anyway. I think I’m going to eat McDonalds. Because I’m allowed to have it today. And it’s going to be good. Dang it.

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Busy Days Ahead…

/ life

Tomorrow is The Grove Leadership Advance. I was driving this morning and finally understood why it was called an Advance. See, most things like that are called Retreats. But we aren’t meeting to find out how to retreat. We’re trying to find ways to make the young adult ministry grow. Thus, Advance. Pastor Mike is clever. 🙂

And I am a dork.

I didn’t think I’d get there until late, but Craig has come through again. So, I get to be there pretty close to on time, as long as traffic is okay. I’m looking forward to learning and sharing. I think it’s going to be very nice.

So, tomorrow, my day looks like this:

Work 730-4
Aidan 5pm (commute 45 minutes)
Chiro 6pm (commute 1 hr)
Craigs 630pm
Leadership Advance 7ish

Had a good evening. I didn’t get to bed until 1:30 this morning, so I was happy to hear Aidan’s grandmother report that he hadn’t taken a nap today. The drive home was slow thanks to some truck, and I didn’t mind because I had a feeling Aidan would fall asleep. HE DID! He was out, and so I took a nap with him. Then we watched Strongbad and looked at pictures until Chris got home. Now Aidan is downstairs watching Little People with Chris, and I’m going to take a bath and then take my laptop into my room to write, I think.

So. I have a question. Especially for you hard core travelers (ie Kelly P). I want to take my laptop to Vegas on the plane. I know I’m allowed a carryon, but are they weird about cables and stuff? Say I want to listen to my iPod and hook it up to my computer. Will they freak out about that? I guess I should read up on it.

I have a piece of pretty blue luggage thanks to Katie M. I’ve only packed some socks and a few toiletries so far, though. I have to get on that Saturday. Perhaps pick up a new little somethin-somethin. 🙂 I definitely need 35mm film. Greg got me a fanny pack, so I may use that for my cameras. Yes, I will surely have multiples.

Randomness II album updated again with pictures from Lake Hope and some pretty trees as well. 🙂 Newest pictures on the last pages. Other albums in progress. YAY. I love pictures.

Okay, bath and bedtime for me. Chris has taken Aidan duty, which I am not sure is such a good thing. He gave Aidan a red popsicle and now Aidan is beyond hyper. He’s going nuts with his mower, and Chris had to confiscate his Little People pumpkin because he was throwing it. That kid has an arm!

Good night!

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