What in the name of arse is this?
Carmen Electra’s Aerobic Striptease.
Wow, that’s all I have to say. And I say that because I’d be the one to buy it. HAHAHAHA.
I’m feeling a lot better now. Everything is okay. Again, I’m glad my friends are more level-headed than I am. Becky & Rob, thanks for all you guys do and all you guys put up with from me. Jennifer, you’ve never hurt me. Thank you for checking in. I owe you an email times nine. Andy, thank you for checking in as well. All of you who offered your hugs–I do feel them and appreciate them.
You know, I hadn’t even skipped my medicine. Only God knows what I would have been like if I had!
I skipped The Grove tonight. Didn’t feel like being with a lot of people. Got to have some quality time with Becky which is always wonderful. Before that, I took a pain killer to help knock out this migraine and I slept. It felt great. I might do the same tomorrow, especially if this migraine isn’t all the way gone. I took four ibuprofen because I’m running low on the pain killers. I only want to save those for the heavy duty pain. Man, do I love the way I feel when those things kick in, though.
I got Anna Nalick’s CD today and I love every single bit of it. It’s going onto my iPod ASAP.
I’m going to finish my dinner and go to bed. G’night!
38 emails to answer.
A messy ass house.
People who think I do nothing but lie to them and betray them when it’s the other way around.
Fed up with having to do what everyone else wants.
Tired of being everybody’s perfect little puppet.
So tired of everything.
Gonna go and hide for a while.
Just got back from another vacation. Not as amazing as Disney, but it did have its good points:
– I got to see very pretty mountains!
– I got to SHOP (very important).
– Stores on the Cherokee American Indian Reservation are awesome. I got the cutest hat!
Here are some pictures:
Me at the Tennessee/North Carolina state line
The Chimney Tops
Me, in Gatlinburg. Check out the hat!
Not sure if I want to go back. It was a cool one-time thing, but honestly, I prefer Disney.
(Besides, the internet connection there was HORRIBLE. It was dial-up, but horrendous. VERY VERY VERY SLOW. Ugh. The one in Disney was at least stable!)
I learned a few things while I was there. Not pretty, either.
– People will use you ’til you’re sucked dry. The sad thing is that they either don’t know they’re doing it, or they do, see how it affects you, and still don’t give a shit. I’m not sure which is worse.
– Most care only about themselves and their own agendas. And if it means hurting someone (namely me) to get that agenda solved, then so be it.
– People lie to themselves. Ridiculously.
I think it’s time for me to start making changes. Again. I’m tired of drama, of being hurt, of feeling like I’ll never be “good enough.” Screw it. I’m good enough for Aidan and that’s quite adequate.
Argh. Work tomorrow. I need to get to bed soon; I’m tired. Lots of time in the car over the past few days. I’m ready for a hot bath, then glorious sleep. But maybe some spaghetti first. ‘Til next time…