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I Wasn’t Going To Update Yet, But….

Friday, I went back to work. As expected, the boss seemed to have a few issues but he kept quiet about most of them, and even said something nice about me in the staff meeting today. I think he was taken aback by the fact that even though I’d been out of the office for 4 days, I was still able to make all of my deliverables. Mostly because I’m pretty caught up there. So anything he’d asked for, I had for him first thing. BAM.

Seriously. Being out for 4 days, then coming in and being almost all caught up by the time lunchtime rolls around. Hmm. I really think I need to do something to challenge myself.

My boss #2 is the cutest thing ever. He’s so funny and has the nicest smile. I wonder if he’d let me take a picture of him to post on my LJ. Haha.

When I got to work, there were gifts galore! This team, who I’d been supporting only a few months, went all out for me! One lady got me a cute basket full of peppermints and an instant lottery ticket (I didn’t win), another got me a basket of Mary Kay stuff, and another got me a nicely scented candle from White Barn Candle Co. Can’t go wrong there! 🙂 There were also cards all over my desk. What a pleasant surprise. It really does make me feel appreciated and like I DON’T do everything wrong.

After work, I went to the chiro. Then I treated myself to dinner at Panera. Ooo, I love that place and had been craving a cinnamon crunch bagel for days now. I had my usual– the You Pick Two deal: chicken noodle soup and asiago roast beef, hold the onions. Yummy!! Then I went to Heritage, where I was battling major cramps. 🙁 I met up with two more LJ users <3!! and then we hung out, chatted, and some people watched parts of Muppets Christmas Carol.

I was sooo happy to see Rob there tonight! 😀 It had been nearly a month since I saw him last, so it was long overdue.

We played broomball at The Chiller and it was sooooo sweet. By now, the cramps had dissappated (thank God), so I was in much better spirits than earlier. I had so much fun, I didn’t think I’d enjoy it so much! I’d totally play again. 🙂 I loved when Jenny E kept falling at random. Yes, I fell on my butt a couple of times, but nothing really serious. There’s nothing like chasing a ball around on ice (in tennis shoes; no skates!) with “brooms” trying to hit them into goals. Rob took tons of pictures and he said I can have them, so hopefully I’ll have some to post soon.

After broomball, Rob, Kelly, Tyler, and I ate at Steak and Shake where Bizzy and Mark joined us. 🙂 Rob paid for all of us because he’s awesome like that. He left early, though, because he wasn’t feeling well. Poor Rob.

My favorite quote of the night is when “Everybody Dance Now” by C&C Music Factory was playing in Steak and Shake, said by Tyler:

This makes me want to take my clothes off.

I got home and Craig was here, and more cleaning was done. Chris was decorating my birthday cake. I’m excited for my party. I can’t believe the day is here. I hope it’s a success and fun and some of my dreams come true, at least. Heh.

So, Kelly Clarkson has this song on her album called “Addicted.” Yeah. It’s sweet. I can’t stop listening to it.

I should probably go to bed. It’s getting close to 5am. I’ve been up for almost 24 hours and it totally doesn’t feel like it.

Oh, before I go:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIZZY!!

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Elusive Sleep

My body is tired. My eyes are heavy. When light hits my pupils, I immediately want to shut my lids and drift into oblivion.

But as soon as I lie down, my mind wakes up. Thoughts flood my brain, and my heart races. I toss and turn, trying to calm myself, trying to clear my mind so I can find solace in that elusive place called Slumberland.

My sleep patterns are completely out of wack. I’ve been napping during the day due to being sick, therefore, I’ve been finding it hard to fall asleep no earlier than 5am or so. My body has become so dependent on medicine to knock me out that it’s having a hard time doing it on its own. And there is the heartburn issue. Lots of heartburn for some reason. That may be because of all the medication I’m taking at the moment.

I have to go back to work (although it is EXTREMELY tempting to take another day off and rest, and I’ll see how I feel in the morning before I decide for sure), and I’m not really looking forward to it. I’m not looking forward to the grind, to the demands, to whatever “judgement” is waiting for me in my mailbox because I was out for so long.

Even now, my eyelids droop and the screen becomes unfocused. But now I’m afraid to place my head on the pillow, for what will cause my pulse to pound this time?

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Hmm

Why in the bloody hell can’t I sleep?

Ugh. My mind is racing with all sorts of fun ideas and thingamaboppers!

Ok. Breathe. Breathe. Sleep. Sleep.

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I’m Ready To Fly

I’ve been here grounded far too long
I’m ready to see the open wide
Ready to sing a different song
I’ve seen my troubles ‘long the way
I want to sail towards the sun
I want to turn another page
I’m on my way

I’m ready to fly
I’m ready to soar
I’m ready to leave this world behind
I’m ready to open up the door
I’m ready to fly
I’m ready to spread my wings across the sky
I think it’s time
I’m ready to go
I’m ready to fly

You’ve told me I could rise above
Like an eagle on the wind
I can glide upon Your love
But I feel the pull of gravity
And it’s a weight upon my shoulders
I can’t stay here any longer
I’ve gotta be free

And it’s been so long
Since I’ve seen the bright morning sun
Through the early morning horizon
And it’s been so long
Since I’ve felt the air under my wings
And seen all of these things
From above

Jeromy Deibler (FFH)

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