I’m still shaken. I walked to the library today and just felt…ANGRY and nervous and suspicious of every single person I saw on the street. I took everything out of my wallet/purse thing except for my driver’s license. Then I worried that I’d get jumped because of all the Tiffany jewelry I wear. I’m considering removing it all and going bare or going back to wearing my costume stuff. I’m not getting joy out of anything right now. It’s like, this huge shadow over me. I just don’t feel secure anymore.
Does this ever pass?
Because I’m having a very hard time trying to get back to normal life right now.
Took the day off again today. I lay in bed and relaxed and read and relaxed and napped. It was awesome and so needed. It’s hard to motivate myself to go into work when I feel so crappy, and when there’s not much to do. But I’ll definitely be back tomorrow. I have to turn in my time card. Ha.
Aidan’s on his way over. His dad has a meeting to go to, so I’ll be spending the evening with my little boy. We’ll probably watch PowerPuff Girls. I purposely held on to that movie for a while. I plan to buy it for him soon, as he is on this PPG kick lately.
Been having weird thoughts about weird things I’ve never thought I’d have thoughts about again, ever. Kind of fleeting, kind of not. It’s kind of scary, the way my thoughts have been going. But I’ll stop worrying about it now, because there actually IS nothing to be worried about.