survey

Blather

I thought I’d try to get through another day without updating, but that’s not the case, obviously.

I went for my eye exam today. Stupid insurance won’t cover my frames because I got contacts last year. Grr. So I had to pay $211 with all the overages (thin lenses, anti-reflective coating) and such for a new pair of glasses. I could have dealt with the drill-mounts I guess, but they are high maintanance.

The good news is that my prescription is the same, so I CAN wear the drill-mounts if I feel like hassling with them (they are a nice pair of glasses) but now I get a really cute pair of maxstudio glasses too. Ones that won’t be such a pain to maintain. πŸ™‚ I should have them in a week. In the meantime, since I wore my glasses to the place and the doctor gave me contacts to wear out, they gave me a free glasses case. It’s bright pink and tres cute.

Smells funny, though.

Heard at the Chiropractor yesterday:
Pooooot
Whiny Kid Voice: Mattttheewwwww! (mumble whine whine)
Matthew: I didn’t say that, my butt did.

Little boys crack me up. I wonder what kind of gems Aidan will spout when he gets older.

I’m hungry but I have no clue what I want to eat. Nothing sounds very appealing, so I’ve been munching on jelly beans trying to get some sort of clue. Maybe I’ll get Panera for dinner. Oh, but that involves effort and money. Although, it’s been a long time since I’ve had it. Mmmm. Asiago roast beef and chicken noodle soup, followed by a cinammon crunch or dutch apple bagel for dessert. Yummmm.

Drama club meeting tonight, but first a stop at the Post Office. πŸ˜€

Please don’t read this.

Comments Off on Blather

A Perfectly Pointless Potluck Entry

I am no longer allowing myself to go to Barnes and Noble without supervision. I tend to have a severe lack of self-control when I’m in there. I LOVE books, guys. And around every corner I find one, two, or three more that I want. Last night, I picked up:

Ten Minute Yoga for Flexibility & Focus (from the Bargin Bin)
Away Laughing on a Fast Camel: Even More Confessions of Georgia Nicolson
Webster’s New World Power Vocabulary vol. 2 (from Bargin Bin)
Angry Little Girls.

I WANT THIS: The American Heritage Dictionary of the English Language. Drooooool. Call me sad if you want, but I love dictionaries. LOVE.THEM.

(I used to hate them in 3rd grade–I’m sure my teacher would be shocked to see the word buff I’ve become.)

I’d actually love one of those dictionaries that are so large they have to have their own stands. Like the ones at the library. Whoa.

OR THIS: Twenty Volume Oxford English Dictionary set. $1,350.00!!!! Sacre bleu & Mon Dieu!!!!

Went to Target yesterday and went a little bit crazy. I got a Sonicare Toothbrush and whoa. I love it. πŸ™‚ I used a sonic toothbrush years and years ago before they even became “trendy,” and I loved it then. But the company stopped making them, and it got to the point where it would never hold a charge anymore, so no more sonic toothbrush for me. Until last night! YAY!

I’m hungry.

OOoooOooo! It’s supposed to be such a pretty day today!! Temps in the 70s, sunshine! πŸ™‚ My favorite kind of weather! Ooo, Spring please hurry. I am so sick of the winter and cold and greys. I’m ready for nice weather and parties and cookouts (yummy hamburgers on a grill!) and parks, driving barefoot, game nights, and fun,fun,fun!

(Plus, Chris got a big a$$ bonus so we’re finally getting air conditioning! PARTY-TIME!!!)

So UNFOCUSED! Mmyeah, can you say SPRING FEVER??!?!??!

I should get new glasses. I love my drill mounts but they are a right pain in the arse to maintain. They loosen way too often.

And if I want a job in Communication, I’m going to have to leave Nationwide. I’ve lost count of all the jobs I’ve applied for and gotten rejected every single bloody time. If they’d just INTERVIEW me they could see…but they keep yanking in people off the streets. Grrrrrrr. How can someone off the street know more about the company than someone who’s worked here for SIX YEARS?

I know what it is. They see “Administrative Secretary” and immediately think “she’s stupid.” I don’t know why I even bother, here. Secretaries get no love, no respect. So, I’m going to have to keep looking elsewhere.

Everyone keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I am ripe, absolutely RIPE for a new career; one that is closer to my passion of editing/proofreading/writing.

Switching gears…

Have you ever had a feeling, unexplained, that something yummy and exciting was going to happen? I’m getting that feeling now. It’s rare; this blind optimism, this anticipation and tingly hope. I wonder if it’s because it’s sunny and warm outside? Or maybe because I’m wearing lots of pink today? Or perhaps it’s because I’m finally starting to feel more normal and less sick!! I feel like I have energy for days. IT’S GREAT! πŸ˜€

I almost broke down and bought one of those “Gossip Girl” books, but decided against it because I prefer first-person told stories over third-person told stories, especially in YA novels. Then I almost bought Broken China, and I think I still might, actually.

Has anyone read those A-List books? What do you think?

Ack. My reading list is growing quicker than my income. Methinks it’s time to head to the library again. Reserve and self-checkout is a beautiful thing. Quick, painless, and I come away with BOOKS!!!!! πŸ˜€

Deb
You are Deb and you could drink whole milk if you
wanted.

Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Bahahaha! πŸ™‚ I like Deb. And I use Caboodles. πŸ˜‰

—————–

Fill out PLEASES!

I __________ Ronni.

Ronni is __________.

Ronni & I are __________.

I wish Ronni and I were __________.

If I were alone in a room with Ronni, I would __________.

I want Ronni to know __________.

I think Ronni should __________.

Ronni needs __________.

I want to __________ with Ronni.

Ronni reminds me of __________.

Someday Ronni will/may __________.

Without Ronni, __________.

The worst thing about Ronni is __________.

The best thing about Ronni is __________.

I am __________ with Ronni.

Is it just me, or do some of those questions seem loaded?

Speaking of questions, I’m REALLY behind on my “ask me anything” thingamabopper. Bear with me. I’ll get to them soon.

Game Night. It’s time to start planning! I guess I’ll wait ’til after we get the air conditioning to have it so people won’t be overly warm in our house. Last year’s was SO MUCH FUN, I can’t wait to have another one. *dances* Game Night Game Night Game Night PARTAY!!!!!! πŸ˜€

McDonalds for lunch today, I think! YAY!

I love it when I’m in a great mood.

‘Til later!

Comments Off on A Perfectly Pointless Potluck Entry

Random Survey(s)

FIRSTS
First job: pasta maker/deli clerk at Gale’s Village Market
First funeral: February 1985 – my grandfather.
First pet: Darby the Dog!
First piercing: 8 or 9 years old; earlobes
First credit card: 5/3 Bank Visa
First real kiss: Adam
First serious true love: Mike
First enemy: Hmmm
First favorite band: New Kids on the Block

L A S T S:
-Last car ride: this morning, driving in to work
-Last relationship: I’m married.
-Last library book checked out: Girls In Pants: The Third Summer of the Sisterhood (I finally got it!)
-Last movie watched: Umm…?
-Last beverage drank: Fanta orange
-Last food consumed: Twinkie
-Last CD played: No CDs. Been playing my iPod.
-Last website visited(not LiveJournal): Shadow Poetry

N O W:
-Single or Taken: Taken
-Birthday: 12/20
-Sign: Sagittarius
-Siblings: a sister, a brother in law, a sister in law, and a brother from another mother
-Hair color: golden
-Eye color: hazel
-Shoe size: 6.5
-Height: 5’1″

RIGHT NOW WHAT ARE YOU…:
-Wearing: brown and beige striped shirt, brown cords, cream colored sweater
-Thinking about: how sick I am
-Listening to: nothing

F A V O R I T E S:
-Favorite song: Anywhere Is by Enya
-Favorite movie: N/A
-Favorite show(s): The O.C., Unwrapped (although I haven’t watched TV in ages)
-Favorite phrase or word: “What had happened was…”
-Favorite holiday: Christmas

R A N D O M:
-What are you going to do after this: more work.
-Do you drink: sometimes.
-How many times a week do you drink: try once every few weeks.
-Do you smoke: no.
-Do you think you’re attractive: most of the time
-Best Friends: Rob, Becky, Bizzy, Ivy, Jen*Jen, Andy

————————————————-

1. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandmother’s/father’s first name + favorite snack):
Bessie Chocolate

2. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: (first word you see on your left + favorite restaurant):
Payroll McDonalds

3. YOUR SOCIALITE NAME: (silliest childhood nickname + first town where you partied):
Pookielee Columbus

4. YOUR “FLY GIRL/GUY” NAME: (first initial + first three letters of your last name):
R DAV

5. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite animal + name of high school):
Giraffe John Adams

6. YOUR BARFLY NAME: (last snack food you ate + your favorite drink):
Twinkie Kool-Aid

7. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name + street where you first lived):
Lanean Lenacrave
The actual first street I I lived on was E. 143rd St. I didn’t think that would work so I used the 2nd one.

8. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (favorite candy + favorite musicians last name):
Whatchamacallit ??

9. YOUR OPPOSITE SEX NAME: (name of [opposite sex] friend + cell phone company you use):
Rob Verizon

10. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: ( first 3 letters of your last name+ last 3 letters of mothers middle name /+/ first 3 letters of your pets name + first 3 letters of the town you live in):
Dav (oh crap my mother has no middle name-I’ll just use mine)
Davean Lucpat

That was weird!

I feel worse and worse. πŸ™ I’m exhausted with no relief in sight for ages. Grrrrrr. All I want to do is go to bed and sleep–but that won’t be happening for at least another ten hours. Double Grrrr.

Comments Off on Random Survey(s)

A Potluck Entry

Lots of Randomness Ahead.

Ronni,
You are quite willing to apply all your energy toward making your life easier now, but it may seem as if there are no quick answers. Your unexpressed insecurities have more of a hold on you than you realize. There is, however, great potential in the current situation, but you’ll need to slow down and take the time to discover what is here for you. If you can avoid being such an optimist for a while and see things as they really are, you’ll learn an important lesson about creating intimacy.

I LOVE tarot.com. It’s like–they know everything. And I love how their horoscopes aren’t all “this is going to happen today.” It’s about how I’m feeling. I wonder if other people with my sign are dealing with similar issues?

It’s scary and amazing how a certain incident can trigger all sorts of things within oneself–things this person thought were buried or resolved. Sometimes the response is more emotional than one had anticipated–often to the point of shock and then self-revulsion. I know exactly what this part is referring to: Your unexpressed insecurities have more of a hold on you than you realize. Now that I’m aware, I have to keep being patient with myself as I work through it.

Worried about a few things; people mainly. You know who you are. I’m here if you need to talk.

I NEED to get an oil change this weekend. NEED. I’m like 6,000 miles past the limit. Tire rotation is due too. Can you believe I put over 20,000 miles on my car in a year? I drive a LOT. Let’s not talk about how much I spend in gas. Yeah, about that. I spend probably $60 a week in gas, and that’s a little Hyundai Accent. Approx. 8.5 gallon tank. Costs me close to $20 to fill it up because gas is getting so expensive. So… I guess we are to expect the prices to hover around $2.00/gallon now?

I’m going to need to do some freelance work to make up for that!

Now if I could just not be a chicken-shit and actually submit some freelance stuff….

I am so glad it’s Friday. The weather is finally warming up! Spring is this Sunday WHEEE! It’ll be summer before I know it! YEA! Cute clothes, flipflops, cool sunglasses-here I come!

I think we’re going to finally get A/C put in our house this year too. No more fans! Ha!

I hope to spend a lot of time connecting and reconnecting with my friends this summer. I love the summertime. I’m looking forward warm temps, NO SNOW, sunshine, parties, cookouts, game nights, campouts (yes, Rob??) and then some. I can’t wait for the winter to be over.

I forgot to write that I had dinner with my friend Tony a couple of Sundays ago. It was really nice. We ate at Max & Erma’s. He had just come from work and he has to dress up so he looked really hot. He doesn’t believe me when I say he’s hot, but it’s true. I’ll have to post a picture of him.

The dinner went very well. We talked and talked and talked. It was very good and extremely enjoyable.

OOooo, how happy am I at the prospect of sunlight wafting through the house?? Now I just have to clean it. AGAIN. Son of a….

I miss Rob. A LOT.

I’m thinking of getting a new car stereo. My CD player is busted. When I put CDs in, it makes this nasty tapping noise and my CDs start to skip. Chris says it needs to be cleaned. So I’m going to try that. If that doesn’t work, then I’m going to look into a new stereo. I’d love a CD Player/Cassette Desk combo. I really want to be able to play my iPod in the car without using an FM Transmitter. I have an iTrip and it’s rather annoying. Can’t say I wasn’t warned, though. ‘Cause I was.

The song “Roses” by Outkast is stuck in my head.

And now for a bit of soul-baring:

I get scared when I find myself in friendships that are deepening. When I really hit it off with someone, I embrace them, then I immediately want to push them away. I know it comes from being hurt so much in the past. From letting people in and trusting them only for them to betray me. Or dismiss me.

I think back to the cycles in my life. The times when I was incredibly social to the times I locked myself in my apartment and made videos of myself singing “This Kiss.” *blush* I flip-flop so much between dying for alone time and longing to be with my friends! It’s so confusing and weird.

I know that I’m trying to protect myself and my heart. But how much is too much? I’m in my social period now but I feel myself winding down. Craving more time alone, just with me. In my house. But I refuse to shut out the people I know now–I’ve been having too much fun with them and they mean way too much to me. I’ve grown up (somewhat, not really) and I just can’t shut people out anymore because I’m scared they’re going to hurt me. And I KNOW it’s fear.

I have to break through it.

Dammit. I have so much work to do. And then after all the efforts, I’ll end up dying in the end anyway. Funny, that.

I want to do something with people tonight, I think. Maybe go and grab a bite to eat. Or maybe rent/watch a movie. Anyone up for it?

I’ve got my script memorized (almost) for The Grove on Tuesday. Excitement abounds–My HCC acting debut! πŸ™‚ I love acting. Did y’all know I was a theatre major my first year in college? I switched to psychology because I thought I’d have a better shot at landing a realistic job. I wish I’d switched to Communication. Trying to break into that field is HARD. πŸ™ And it’s what I’m good at and what I love to do. I don’t even get interviews–so I have to maybe rework my cover letter so they can see the passion I have for that and then call me for interviews so I can WOW them. *sigh*

Anyway.

I stole it from sylvehr! πŸ™‚

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Ronni
Birthday: December 20
Birth place: Cleveland, OH
Current Location: Columbus, OH
Hair Color: (naturally) Golden
Righty or Lefty: Righty

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
Your heritage: Good Lord, as if I know.
Shoes you wore today: My Chuck Taylor knock-offs. So frikkin comfy…
Your weakness: SHOPPING!!
Your perfect pizza: Ham. Mmmm.
Goal you’d like to achieve: I would like to be a successful, published author.

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
Your most overused phrase: “What the banana…?” or “So…”
Your thoughts first waking up: “Already?”
Your best physical feature: Eyes and smile.
Your bedtime: I don’t really have one…
Your most missed memory: Huh?

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK
Pepsi or Coke: Ick. Neither.
McDonald’s or Burger King: I love them both.
Adidas or Nike: neither. CONVERSE baby!
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: *shrug* I’m not a huge tea drinker.
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate.
Cappuccino or coffee: Neither.

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: No.
Cuss: Sometimes.
Single: No.
Have a crush: No.
Think you’ve been in love: Yes.
Believe in yourself: I’m learning to.
Get motion sickness: If I read or something for too long while in the car, yes.
Think you’re attractive: 90% of the time.
Think you’re a health freak: NO WAY.
Get along with your parents: Sure.
Like thunderstorms: I HATE THEM.

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank alcohol: Yes.
Gone on a date: No.
Gone to the mall: Heck yes!
Been on stage: No.
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No. Hahaha.
Eaten sushi: I WISH! Dang it, I want some sushi.
Been dumped: No.
Gone skating: No.
Gone skinny dipping: No.
Stolen anything: No.

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER
Played a game that required removal of clothing: No.
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Mmm yeah. About that…
Been called a tease: Not to my face.
Gotten beaten up: No.

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLDER
Age you hope to be married: Already am.
Number of Children: I have one and that’s quite enough, thankyouverymuch.
How do you want to die: I don’t know!
What do you want to be when you grow up: A writer.
What country would you most like to visit: UK, Australia, New Zealand, Ireland, Scotland just to name a few.

LAYER NINE: IN A GAL/GUY
Best eye color?: Blue!
Best hair color?: Dark brown.
Short or long hair: However it looks nice.
Height: Tall.
Best first date location: Somewhere involving food.
First kiss location: *shrug*

LAYER TEN: IN THE NUMBERS
Number of people you could trust with your life: Very few.
Number of CDs you own: not sure. Um… LOTS!
Number of piercings: Two.
Number of tattoos: Zero.
Number of times your name has appeared in the Newspaper?: At least three.
Number of scars on your body: A few.

Weird survey.

Byeee!

Comments Off on A Potluck Entry