Month: February 2005

GRRRRRRRRR

I hate when I have messed up dreams.

This morning’s dream consisted of:

– a trip to New York City (I’d been there in another dream too, to shop)
– a crazy seriel killer who preyed on young, pretty girls (such as myself *g*)
– a young black girl begging her parents to let her play in some sport
– a pool party and lots of digital pictures
– my being late to class or missing class completely (I have this one often, which is odd since I am not in school)

I’m sure there was more. Ugh. A few things about being on medications, being sick, and sleeping weird hours: screwed up dreams, screwed up sleep patterns, no energy, lack of motivation, aches and pains. Double ugh.

Now I get to endure the wrath of Mommy because I forgot to call and deliver the bad news that Aidan won’t be visiting her ’til NEXT weekend. Bah.

EDITED – NO wrath! She heard my hacking and was totally cool!

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Fun Friday Night/Saturday Morning

FINALLY! Friday is the first day I felt like normal. I can tell you the exact time too. Three in the afternoon. That’s when I felt the most like myself physically than I had in DAYS. Still, at 4pm, I made Aidan lie down with me for an hour of mandatory quiet time. Oh, he was pissed. But he fell asleep by 4:25, as did I. I wanted to get him up at 6. We slept til 6:25, when Rob called with THEPLAN for the night. Aidan was suddenly quite possessive of me and didn’t want me to go anywhere. But I dragged him along and he was happy once I bought him dinner.

We watched some movie called AVP. I didn’t like it, it was gross. Lots of slime. Ew. I was glad we ate our Chipotle BEFORE we watched it. I played around on my computer mostly, though. I got to see Bizzy and Rob again which always makes me happy and you have no idea how glad I am to be feeling better, for Aidan to be feeling better. πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ PLUS I got to hang out with Doug, even though he was totally drugged. Poor guy got his wisdom teeth out and was floating on codeine. He was fun, though. And Tyler too, with his random bursts of laughter.

Fun times, good times. πŸ™‚

Night night!

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Just Writing.

Just felt like writing. I slept on the couch last night because I was coughing so much I didn’t want to wake up Aidan. Tonight, I’m sleeping in the guest room so I can cough to my heart’s content. Except, I’m not really content when I’m coughing so much….

Aidan is so precious. It’s kind of weird to me how Chris can leave him alone and crying before he goes to sleep. I’m sure I derail whatever Chris is trying to teach him by doing that because if I hear Chris leave Aidan’s room and Aidan is screaming, I drop everything and go in there with him. I did that a bit ago. Aidan just wanted a soft cheek to touch as he fell off to sleep. It’s so amazing how this little hand is so gentle and special. So full of non-judgement and unconditional love. I don’t like for people to touch my face, but Aidan has full reign. πŸ™‚

I’m slowly starting to feel better. The coughing fits seem to be getting milder, thank goodness. I can sit up for longer than an hour at a time. I don’t feel nearly as exhausted and stuffy as I did before. The first part of this week was pretty much a blur, especially Tuesday and Wednesday. A congested, stuffy-nosed, coughing-filled blur. I hate being sick so much. I lose out and I get so behind and I have no energy for anything. Finally am I starting to feel a bit more like myself.

It must be “Thursday.” I remember back in early 2000, I had a horrible case of the flu. I was throwing up, I could not sit up for more than ten minutes at a time. I had absolutely no appetite. I was sleeping all day. I was miserable and crying because I was so weak and tired and sick. Then Thursday came and I felt better. Chris gave me orange juice and I am convinced the o.j. helped me somewhat. I remember watching Ever After and feeling so happy that I could walk to the bathroom without feeling like I was going to collapse.

One of my books that I put on reserve is in at the library–Speak. Becky recommended it to me, so I’ll go and pick that up soon; they’re holding it ’til the 23rd. I’ll turn in Wicked while I’m at it. I put that third book in the Traveling Pants series on reserve, but last I checked, I was number 115! It’s going to be a while before I get to read that book, huh? Of course, I could just buy all three of them from amazon the next time I get paid. Actually, I may have gotten paid today…? I’m not exactly sure. Hmmm.

There is a cat in here purring. I think it may be Fi. πŸ™‚ Yup, it’s Fi. Yay.

<3 Rob & Bizzy <3!!!
(and ho hos and macaroni and cheese!)

I am having a fit. A Megan (megnita) fit. (ya know, like a nicotene fit?) I haven’t seen her in ages. I must hang out with her soon.

Meep

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Shaking & Quaking

Why did no one ever tell me that chasing my dreams would be so scary?

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