my scramblings & ramblings
There are some who believe all the bad emotions one is feeling; especially if one is overwhelmed by them, are not emotions at all, but rather, evil spirits oppressing him or her. These spirits have names that match the emotions.
Rejection.
Greed.
Lust.
Self-Hatred.
What are your demons? (Post anonymously if you’d like).
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It’s getting tricky to discipline Aidan. He’s learned the power of NO and is not afraid to try to use it. I’m trying to stress to him the importance of not making messes, but he does it anyway, so I tell him to clean it up. ‘NO’ he says. ‘It’s NOT a choice,’ I tell him. It’s hard to follow through, especially when I’m tired at the end of the day or whatnot. But I know it’s important to do it now, or it’ll be much harder down the road.
I am NOT trying to have my son on Jerry Springer, okayyyy?
My website is down, which is a bummer. I was uploading cool stuff, and then it quit on me. BOO. I guess tomorrow maybe? I don’t know.
I need to go to bed soon. I’m pretty tired. I haven’t had dinner. Don’t think I’ll be getting any–although I have some leftover spaghetti in the fridge. I might have to bust that out!
*sigh*
My website’s FTP is not stable at all and it’s frustrating me. (It’s up now). They said it’s my ISP, but I never had problems with uploading when I had Hostfinity. But gah, hostfinity was $33.95 a month and Acenet is $8.95 a month. So yeah, ya know? Anyone recommend any cheap companies with lots of storage?
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Okay, it’s later still. My son insists on removing his diaper and walking around naked. Except, haha. I know why!! *emergency potty break*
This is so random. My site is working now. Here are three new photoalbums:
Enjoy and please comment! 🙂
Disney album coming soon, I PROMISE! It’s going to be huge! WOOHOO!
I should go.
Goodnight!
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I mean, if someone who has an awesome agent and a book deal already in the makings can still get rejected, what chance do I have?
I overlooked my query letter and it no longer seems witty or seem to have that X factor. It just seems gimmicky and stupid.
The paradox of being a writer is this kind of thinking:
I am brilliant.
I am crap.
My writing is amazing.
My writing is worthless.
I will sell a book and be an author!
No one wants to read this junk.
Yes, it goes around and around in my head. Over and over and over.
Checking my email is no fun anymore because I’m cringing, waiting for another rejection to be sitting in my inbox. The first one was nothing. The second one upset me for a few hours. The next one–I don’t know how I’ll handle it.
Now I am in the self-doubting phase. And I want to write. Unfortunately, I don’t think I will have time today, not without sacrificing sleep and my job and other things that need to kind of take priority right now.
Lord, help me.
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In the tradition of Post Secret, I want to do another Anonymous Post Meme. I like to do these every few months–the rawness of the entries amaze me.
Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love – anything. Just be sure to post anonymously…
Spill your soul.
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Link: http://www.paulsadowski.com/birthday.asp
You entered: 12/20/1974
You were born on a Friday under the astrological sign Sagittarius.
Your Life path number is 8.
With the Life Path of the number 8 you are focused on learning the satisfactions to be found in the material world. The Life Path 8 produces many powerful, confident and materially successful people. You are apt to be very independent, forceful and competitive. Your routine is involved in practical, down-to-earth affairs, and there is relatively little time for dreams and visions. You will want to use your ambitions, your organizational ability, and your efficient approach to carve a satisfying niche for yourself. Most of your concerns involve money and learning of the power that comes with its proper manipulation. This Life Path is perhaps the one that is the most concerned with and desirous of status, as an accompaniment to material success. If you are a positive 8 you are endowed with tremendous potential for conceiving far-reaching schemes and ideas, and also possessing the tenacity and independence to follow them through to completion. In short, you are well-equipped for competition in the business world or in other competitive fields of endeavor. You know how to manage yourself and your environment. You are practical and steady in your pursuit of major objectives, and you have the courage of your convictions when it comes to taking the necessary chances to get ahead.
The negative 8 can be dictatorial and often suppresses the enthusiasm and efforts of fellow member of the environment. Often, the strength of their own personality excludes close feelings for other people with whom they come in contact. Material gains and rewards often become issues of utmost importance, even to the neglect of family, home and peace of mind. Dedication to success can become an obsession. Emotional feelings are often suppressed by the negative 8, resulting in isolation and loneliness. All Life Path 8 people must avoid discounting the opinions of others.
(^ Hmm, that is SO NOT ME!!!)
Anyway…
The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2442401.5.
The golden number for 1974 is 18.
The epact number for 1974 is 6.
The year 1974 was not a leap year.
As of 6/12/2005 9:53:20 PM CDT
You are 30 years old.
You are 366 months old.
You are 1,591 weeks old.
You are 11,132 days old.
You are 267,189 hours old.
You are 16,031,393 minutes old.
You are 961,883,600 seconds old.
There are 191 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 31 candles on it.
Those 31 candles produce 31 BTUs or 7,812 calories of heat (that’s only 7.8120 food Calories!) .
You can boil 3.54 US ounces of water with that many candles.
Your birth tree is:
Fig Tree, the Sensibility
Very strong, a bit self-willed, independent, does not allow contradiction or arguments, loves life, its family, children and animals, a bit of a butterfly, good sense of humour, likes idleness and laziness, of practical talent and intelligence.
(^ That IS me!)
There are 196 days till Christmas 2005!
The moon’s phase on the day you were born was waxing crescent.
Friday, December 20, 1974
Moon’s age (days): 6
Distance (Earth radii): 63.50
Percent Illumination 39.44%
Ecliptic latitude (degrees): 5.06
Ecliptic longitude (degrees): 342.88
Neat, huh? 🙂
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