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What Is This Feeling?

/ writing

My friend swankivy posted something along the lines of that as writers, we’re pretty much masochists. I am doing some thinking and it’s true.

There are people out there who completely disrespect what writers do. They think it’s stupid, a waste of time. I am not sure where their opinions are founded, for writers influence every aspect of their lives. Whether it’s the instruction manual they are using for their hairdryers or the movies they watch in the theatre or on Lifetime Television for Women or those songs they listen to on the radio, writers and writing is everywhere.

Many people think that writing is easy.

Writing is not easy!

For me, writing is like bleeding onto the keyboard and/or computer screen. It drains my emotions, it makes me crazy and moody and a bit psychotic if you ask me. And yet, I cannot stop doing it. I love it and I hate it too. It’s like a compulsion, a drive that I cannot control. And I LOVE every second of it.

Writing. Then rewriting. Editing. Proofreading. I can’t wait to get home every evening, bust out my laptop and let my imagination run wild. I love those times when everything clicks and the fingers are flying over the keyboard and I’ve relaxed and I can’t stop even if I want to.

It’s joy. So much joy. I am scared of it, but I will keep on.

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Passion in My Heart

/ writing

So here is that part where I am desperate to write, but once I get the chance, I freeze. I either get scared, or mysteriously tired or something. I know it’s because I’m scared. Because I’m doing something I love and somehow I think I don’t deserve that.

I have to work through this. I have my laptop in my car. I have books. I need to get to work. I NEED TO.

I hate that I become so motivated during the workday when I’m not allowed to write, and by the time the evening rolls around, I’m too drained to do anything. That frustrates all bananas out of me.

Thank goodness it’s Friday!

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Reese’s Pieces

/ friends, weekend

Today is one of those days that I feel like writing a lot. And about anything and everything. So get ready.

To start off…

IT’S FRIDAY!!!!!

Finally.

I had a busy week! That’s good but tiring too. And I got very little writing done. That’s bad.

I spent yesterday evening with Kelle Belle itskels. It was so much fun. She is seriously hot. Like, HAWT. Honestly, she looked really pretty.

A bunch of us had dinner together at Max & Erma’s: Kelle Belle, her husband Al and daughter Ari, Chris, Aidan, Rob, and I. Kelle Belle had forgotten her glasses and could barely read the menu. That was comical. Good times, though.

Poor Aidan had another nightmare. 🙁 He was screaming in terror “Daddy [insert indecipherable word here]!!!” I think something bad was happening to Chris in Aidan’s dream. Poor little guy. I hate when he has those things.

Speaking of Aidan, I found half a chicken strip and a French fry in my purse this morning. Ew.

I “got caught” at work the other day. Getting caught means that someone is acknowledging the fact that I did a good job or something like that. 😀

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A Myriad of Stuff

/ life

Only 8 days til Disneyworld!!

I’m excited to go to Disney, but man, I’m going to be missing loads of happenings back home during that week:

– Acting in the play (I was going to play the lead!)
– Broomball (So much fun)
– Meeting Sarah
– Irena’s baby shower
– Scrapbooking at Archivers (okay, so I haven’t been yet…)
– Depression talk (Women’s study for The Grove)

I plan on getting a Mickey Mouse watch while I’m there, and one of those little Mickey Mouses that go on top of car antennae. I’ve always wanted one of those and now that I have a car, I can finally give it the finishing touch. Well, not quite. The finishing touch would be a fuzzy pink steering wheel cover but I’m having a hard time finding one of those….

Anyway. Disney should be fun. I’m going to miss all that stuff, and my friends (that’s TWO Friday nights I’ll miss *sniffle* so this one has to be GOOD), but I’ll be near MICKEY MOUSE and I’ll get to take loads of pictures. YAY.

Allergies are… well, not exactly terrible, but my eyes have been itching non-stop. I can’t wait to get some rest. There was a small group reunion at Garth’s tonight (didja check out his band’s website? Didja, didja?). It was okay.

The Grove… whoa. Lots of things tried to keep it from happening. First, The Bark gave me all kinds of headaches. The new template wouldn’t save, then it’d do weird things. Jenny E and I both forgot to get the cartoon from Joe, the small group information wouldn’t format correctly, so both of those had to be left out. The first printouts of The Bark—the collage printed out in negative (black instead of white, etc). I had to use a different printer to get it to come out right. I got to the church office early yesterday to make the copies and it was locked!

PANIC!!!

Luckily, the young-adult-pastor’s wife was there, and she got the key from the Sr. pastor’s wife who was also floating around. The pastor was sick, so his wife had to teach last night. She did a good job, though. She glows when she’s up on that stage.

The worship team didn’t get the songs done until right before show time! I hit the wrong button on the remote and turned the projectors completely off. And Power Point crashed about five times. Luckily, most of that happened before The Grove started! But during The Grove, the audio for the “Where’s The Love” video refused to work, so we had to skip it.

Monday was a little bit high stress. But traffic was great, and Aidan was a doll. I had fun talking to people. I got to see Rob, Garth was there, and Craig was kind enough to watch Aidan, so I didn’t have to deal with him on top of all the running around I was doing for The Grove yesterday.

I have a secret! Well, not really. Just a surprise-in-the-making. For a special someone. But that someone won’t get the surprise for months yet because I haven’t even begun anything other than the planning on it. I’m very excited!

And…I’m very tired, and now I’m emotionally drained. Won’t get into it now.

I actually should go. *sigh* My evening ended on a huge damper and I’m really sorta down. 🙁 Later.

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Just An Update

/ life, to do

I have a lot to do this weekend.

  • Visit Hallmark. 🙂
  • The Bark
  • Put away laundry
  • Clean bedroom
  • Query letter!!!!!!!
  • Enjoy the weekend!

I really wish it wasn’t going to rain Saturday. There is going to be a party for Joshua A at the park. I was looking forward to it, but it’s supposed to be cold and wet, and I’ll have Aidan. The combination does not sound appealing. I might still stop by, especially if the rain has tapered off. We’ll see though.

I’d love to take Aidan to the zoo, but again. That pesky weather has gotten in the way. Drat.

You know, even though it’s trying to warm up, it’s still depressing to get up in the morning, see grey skies, and freeze all day! It’s so cold. I’m still using my heater in the car! When will Spring really get here? And Summer?

Although thunderstorms can go straight to h-e-double hockey sticks.

None of my friends have sympathy for me because they all LOVE storms. What in the world? How did I get tangled up in such a weird bunch? Storms are almost on the same plane as onions as far as I’m concerned.

Which reminds me. One of my favorite quotes from last weekend:

Kim P: I enjoy onions.
Everyone Else: EWWWW!

And now, it’s time for guess the movie. I haven’t played that in a while, have I? 😀
(These are paraphrases, by the way!)

  1. By the time this flight is over, everybody will be pregnant!
  2. As if I’m not already weird enough… LET’S ADD A TIARA!
  3. You got me straight trippin’, boo.
  4. Did you know I’m only seventeen? I probably shouldn’t be drinking this beer… seeing as I’m so–underage and alll.
  5. Get out of here you bastard, or I’ll burn you up. I’ll FRY you!
  6. Go drink a bottle of yourself!

Today at work, I was sorting paper clips. I don’t like the jumbo ones to be bunched in with the regular sized ones, so I was separating them and putting them into their own containers. I had a flashback to when I was in theatre and worked in the scene shop for work study. Periodically, usually after a show and a tear-down, we had to sort screws. Sorting screws was a chore to be despised. Almost as much as washing paint brushes. Ugh, I hated both of them!

Sorting Screws

  • tedious
  • annoying
  • stinky
  • took forever

Washing Paint Brushes

  • smelled like a$$
  • tedious
  • annoying

Dude, we got into some crazy stuff in that scene shop. I used serious heavy duty power tools such as table saws and jig-saws, (and got hooked on the Makita drill!), messed around with materials that covered me from head to toe in a strange dusting—and even though we had on masks and goggles, I still was sneezing that stuff out for hours after we were done working with it.

I miss it. I never thought I’d say that—but I miss it.

This is funny: http://www.bancomicsans.com 🙂 I found it courtesy of itskels. 🙂 You have to love it. Especially since they offer pages of free fonts to use instead of Comic Sans. Woo!

Had fun with my boys Rob and Tyler tonight. 😀 We ate spaghetti, watched a movie, and hung out and talked for a while. Good times, good times. I love Friday nights.

And… HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEGAN!!! 😀

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