my scramblings & ramblings
It took me 1.5 hours to get home. I saw an overturned car (completely upside down), a 10 car accident, a 7 car accident, another smaller accident, and I lost count of all the cars that were off the road. It was insane. We get a little bit of snow and people act like they’ve completely forgotten how to drive. What kinda… never mind.
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Why in the bloody hell can’t I sleep?
Ugh. My mind is racing with all sorts of fun ideas and thingamaboppers!
Ok. Breathe. Breathe. Sleep. Sleep.
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Everyone else is doing it, so why can’t I?
2004 Memories Survey
1. What did you do in 2004 that you’d never done before?
Got my driver’s license! Helped lead a life group for a while. Played volleyball in a pool. Went to Las Vegas! Started guitar lessons. Camped out.
2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I kept one. Can’t remember the rest. Wait, I don’t make resolutions…
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No one really close, but lots of people I know did.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
No.
5. What countries did you visit?
None.
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
Some financial sense. I need to learn to be cheap like Tyler. 🙂
7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Hmm, don’t really have one.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Finishing another novel, getting my license.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Racking up more debt.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Depression.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
My car, followed closely by my laptop.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
n/a
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
n/a
14. Where did most of your money go?
Clothes and electronics.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
The Easter retreat, Las Vegas, etc.
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
Hmm, any Avril song from Under My Skin, and I think Only One by Yellowcard.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? MUCH happier
ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner
iii. richer or poorer? Um…are you talking about money or other things? 🙂
18. What do you wish you’d done more?
Thought before making so many purchases. 🙂
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Spending money!
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
With Aidan and Chris, probably.
21. Did you fall in love in 2004?
Not really.
22. How many one-night stands?
NONE.
23. What was your favorite TV program?
The O.C.
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
No.
25. What was the best book you read?
I’m reading “Searching For God Knows What” by Donald Miller.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Oooo… Aria. Yes, Aria.
27. What did you want and get?
A laptop, and a guitar. A car. Lots of clothes and music and fun electronics.
28. What was your favorite film of this year?
Harry Potter and the POA
29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
It hasn’t come yet! A week from today!
30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
MORE money, a job I felt passion for.
31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
Trendy, but cute.
32. What kept you sane?
My friends. Writing. Computer time.
33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Hmm, Adam Brody. <3
34. What political issue stirred you the most?
Don’t even get me started. :[
35. Who did you miss?
Lots of people.
36. Who was the best new person you met?
OH MY GOSH. I cannot answer this question with just one person. So here goes: Kelly P, Emily, Bizzy, Becky, Rob, Garth, Tyler, Mr. Matt and if I am forgetting you please accept my apologies. (Tami, don’t even get all mad, I met you in 2003).
37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
I don’t know…
38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Hmmm. Let me get back to you. It’s bedtime.
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Internet DRAMA this weekend! Connectivity issues out the wazoo. Ack.
I guess about 5pm yesterday, the Road Runner went out. Caplooey. Caboom. Splat. I was enroute from Aurora (after having dropped Aidan off to stay with his grandmommy for another week), so I was sad to come back home and find no connection. However, the cable modem was flashing all happy like, and everything said connected. But alas, no internet!
I tried everything. Andy walked me through several steps. Nothing. Then Andy realized there was an outage in my area. I went to bed, thinking it’d be fixed Sunday morning.
Sunday morning came. Still no internet. I called the company. They reported the outage again, and I put in my phone number. The computer told me that my house was NOT in the outage. I called customer service. They rebooted my box from their place. Nothing. I was on the phone with National support. Went through all the same steps as Andy. Still nothing. Still offline.
I got on dialup, sent a few emails, and checked status. It was GREEN. It had turned green at that very moment. So I checked the cable modem and could see it rebooting. Tired of dealing with it, I went shopping. Came back, still nothing. So I unplugged the modem, and went to Chad & Christy’s. I used their internet til it kicked me out like it always does. Came home and did some fighting with it again. Finally, Andy had me totally reset the router. And VOILA! Internet again. YAY! 🙂
So, in the midst of all that, I got more Christmas shopping done. I only have a few more things to buy and I’ll be FINISHED. I am so happy this year. I haven’t felt this kind of joy for Christmas in a long time.
Busy week ahead.
Monday – Word 2000 Advanced training, the chiro, then some errands. Then cleaning and holiday stuff. Woo.
Tuesday – Work, relax a bit, The Grove, then ???
Wednesday – cleaning, holiday stuff
Thursday – cleaning, holiday stuff, shopping for birthday party
Friday – The Grove Christmas thingy
Should be good, though. 🙂
Okay, I don’t have much else to write. I think this entry was boring. Oh well.
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I was going to wait until the end of the year or closer to Christmas to write this out, but I feel like doing it now.
(Edited 12:02pm Sunday 12/12/2004 to add more people!)
Thank You, Lord for my little boy Aidan. His bright smile, his little laugh. The opportunity to raise him and watch him learn and grow. Thank you for allowing me to take care of Your child, for entrusting me with this precious little boy whom I love so dearly.
Thank You, Lord for the sunny days. For Little Lucy who is either in the room with me or snuggled up beside me in bed. For Fi, who is so cute with his bright green eyes, and Gracie, who purrs if you just look at her tenderly.
Thank You, Lord for Kelly P, who catches me on IM late at night and who I share some of the best conversations with. And hugs. 🙂 Thank you for Rob, whose song writing is beyond anyone I know, and who really has no idea how great he is. Thank you for the friendships developing with Emily (yoimemily), Bizzy (otaku_witch), and Becky (magecky413). Thank you for allowing these girls into my life, for giving them the peace to trust me with the deepest parts of their hearts. Thank you for Andy and all his computer geekdom and unconditional love. Thank you for Tyler and his great (smile) taste in music and for being a good conversation partner when we both relax and stop thinking so much of what to talk about. Thank you for Mr. Matt for understanding what it’s like to be sensitive.
Thank You, Lord for Tami and Kim and Tina. They all contribute so much to my life that’s special. Thank you to Charla and Kelly S (itskels). Who else can I IM with and get “drunk” at the same time? I mean, as long as we’re chatting, it’s not technically drinking alone, is it? 😉 Thank you for Garth who is so gentle and kind and who can always sense when things aren’t quite right with me. Thank you for Joshua A. His happiness and smiles are contagious!
Thank You Lord, for Chad and Christy, two people who have dropped everything more than once to come to my aid and not asked for a thing in return. Thank you for Craig, who is amazing beyond words. Thank you for Jennifer, another one who has no idea how wonderful she really is. Thank you for Jen*Jen, who knows everything about me… and likes me anyway.
Thank you for Ivy (swankivy). We’ve been friends for more than seven years; mostly through the internet, and yet I feel so close to her. She’s amazing. Thank you for Amy (hunan), Helen (pixiedash), Star (selfstyled), Ci (starrlyte), and all of my other online friends who know me and have been there for me.
Thank you for Katie (live4himalways) for being my bright, shining star, and who I need to hang out with soon.
Thank You for Chris. You know that we’re going through some stuff now. But he does try, and I often forget to thank him or appreciate him for the things he does for me and for Aidan.
Thank You for my church. Even though I am often at odds with it, and with You, for that matter, something still draws me there. You draw me there.
Lord, most of all, I thank You that You’re not me. Even as I’ve RAGED at you, and still do, you continue to bless me and love me and hold me close to You. Even as I push you away, even as I fight You, You’re still there. I ask myself how could you love someone like me, but you tell me to be still and stop worrying. Just accept Your Grace, accept Your wisdom, and then I will know peace. You are wonderful, You can do this.
Lord, thank you for the many blessings you rain down upon me and my family and my friends. Thank You for being there, for being wonderful. I know I don’t always show it or act like it, but You are always here. And I thank You for that.
I want to see Him, I want to touch Him. I want to feel His presense all around me, enveloping me, suffocating me almost. I am so thirsty for Him, I am longing so much for Him. And yet, I forget that when I get so caught up in life. In now. In things. In actuality, I just want Him.
I just want God.
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