life

but, God…

/ church, god stuff, life, positivity

This week, our church is hosting it’s annual Christmas “whatchamacallit” (they actually say that) and the title is “but, God…” The two most beautiful words in the English language, right? Definitely a “devine but” (yes, they actually said that too). Usually, “but” followed by something means negativity. But in this case, it means something good came out of something sucky because of God.

Last week, I crashed big time. I don’t know if it was the higher dosage in the medication, or just circumstances, or maybe a combination of both. I crashed and I wanted it to be over. But God (heehee) showed me reasons why it’s not time yet. Firstly, there is Aidan. He gives me so much joy. I live to see that child smile. He’s special and precious and wonderful and amazing and funny as all bananas. Then there were my friends. The ones who took the time to email me, IM me, talk to me. The ones who were right there, praying for me, thinking of me, sending me hugs from thousands of miles away. The ones who tell me they need to hang out with me. Little Lucy, my kitty who cuddles with me every night and watches me type away on this laptop every night before I go to bed. How could I want to leave this?

God gives me gentle reminders of things I’ll miss out on if I were to leave this earth before He was ready. Little, silly things. Like Christmas. What’s in my stocking? I want to know! Aidan at age 5. That’s a biggie, but there it is. What new music will come out next year? What will happen next week on The O.C. Just little things to look forward to, little reasons to keep going. When I focus on those, I forget the overwhelming big picture and I stop freaking out so much.

So, that’s my “But God” story. For now, anyway. I’m interested to see this program. I’m not sure which show I will go to–there are plenty to choose from! 🙂 I’m looking forward to it. Good night.

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A Kind of Blah Day

/ life, sick

Worked 1/2 a day today which is good because I didn’t get to bed until nearly 2:30am! Came home, took a nap, then went to the doctor. He upped my meds to 20mil a day. Yeah, I’d say I needed it. Heh.

Came home, slept some more, then went and picked up Aidan. We went to Meijer and I did some Christmas shopping. 😀 And I got Bizzy’s (otaku_witch) birthday present. 🙂 Came home, worked my magic with the tree to fill in those missing holes, watched The O.C. (how is it possible that Adam Brody gets cuter by the day??), did quite a bit of cleaning, and now here I am. I cleaned the island in the kitchen, the living room, and my CLOSET. Not sure where that came from but yeah.

Now, I’m listening to Aidan scream at Chris for some reason, the television’s too loud, so I don’t know how soon I’ll be getting to sleep.

I’m so glad tomorrow is Friday, and I get to spend the evening with Emily (yoimemily). 😀 Should be good times, there.

Okay then. First attempt at sleep coming up. After I screw around a bit, of course. Byee.

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Went Shopping Today!

/ life, shopping

I love shopping on “Black Friday.” There are so many great deals, the stores are all festive and pretty, and the energy in the crowds. I got a late start. I didn’t get to Easton until around 11:30. But I found a parking spot right away and off I went.

You can check out my post at Shopaholix to see all the stuff I got. Of course, I shopped for other people too, but I’m not going to disclose THOSE details. Tsk tsk!

I got Christmas cards, but the one box smells like strong cologne. And it was open in the store. I counted all the cards and made sure they were there because it was the only box left of that particular style I wanted. But now this cologne smell. Very unsettling. I probably won’t send most of those after all. 🙁 Fortunately, I bought 2 boxes of cards, though. 😀

Tomorrow, we go and get Aidan. Although I missed him, I loved the break. I loved having no responsibility. Sleeping whenever I wanted. SHOPPING without having to lug him in and out of the car seat. That was awesome. But tomorrow, it’s back to reality. Oh well.

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Turkey Day Gobble Quack

/ life, thanksgiving

My turkey day wasn’t too bad. Ate some good food, watched Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban, and watched the 50 most awesomely bad songs countdown on VH1 at Chad and Christy’s. Actually, I’m still here. 🙂

So, I’m hungry right now, but I don’t want Thanksgiving food. I want spaghetti. But we’re out of tomato sauce and parmesan cheese. Tragic. I’m still deciding if I want to go shopping early tomorrow or not. I want to go to the Apple store at some point and pick up an iTrip. But if I don’t make it, no big deal.

Talked to Aidan on the phone today. Sort of. He is doing very well with his grandmommy and she can’t wait to keep him again. I told her she could actually have him for another week, but she said some other time, but SOON. This is very good for me. Now I know that she wants to spend the extra time with him, and I get week-long breaks, I’ll be taking advantage of that more often. Yay. It’s going to be weird to go back to mommyhood next week.

Actually, I could go for some chocolate too. Like, a Ho-Ho.

But I’ll probably go to bed. After playing on the computer for hours. Yeah. That’s my life. Fun.

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Holy Crap I’m Bored & Random Thanks

/ grrr!, life, thanksgiving, work

I want to go home!!!!! akdfjawlkfjadfklajlk!

I am so ready. My boss promised we’d get to go early. But now there is a “fire.” I have a feeling since HE has to stay, he’s going to make all the rest of us stay too.


THIS SUCKS!

It’s so dead here, otherwise. I’m getting ZERO emails. The floor is silent. I am bored. I want to go HOME and play and sleep and email Ivy and just … aiojifjiafjadjlfhajkfh.

Since I’m so bored, I’ve decided to Give Some Thanks.

Here goes:

– Thanks to Rob for randomly making me smile.
– Thanks to Tyler for “Only One” and “Slipped Away.”
– Thanks to Tami for certain Chinese characters that she (hopefully) has the hang of by now!
– Thanks to Kelly S itskels for always dying. =DEAD=

NO Thanks To:

– MyNW for acting stupid the day before Thanksgiving therefore cutting into my LEAVING EARLY PRIVILEDGES. @&%$!
– My tires that keep leaking air.
– The weather for being RAINY.

Grrrsnarly.

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