Sunday Stealing (6)

SUNDAY STEALING: The Honesty Meme

Right now I’m feeling…
…worn out.

When I’m alone I feel…
…relaxed.

When I’m surrounded by people I feel…
…energized if the people I am around are fun and energized.

One thing I hate is…
…feeling hopeless and out of control.

One thing I really like about myself is…
…my eyes.

When I’m feeling sad I…
…cry and mope.

When I daydream it’s usually about…
…living in a warmer climate, working at a job I really love, being rich, winning powerball, building a house, doing gymnastics or really hard yoga poses, dancing in disney parades, being in movies….

I’m afraid of…
…Hell.

I’m happiest when…
…I have a stack of new books to read, a pillow, a cat to cuddle, my Pandernoodle to cuddle, a glass of juice and something yummy to snack on, I’m warm, and no where to go or nothing to do but relax.

One thing that really worries me is…
…how I’m going to survive fourth quarter without having some sort of breakdown.

If I could change one thing about myself it would be…
…less fear and more commitment to chasing my dreams.

If I could be with anyone right now I would be with…
…well, I’m with Aidan and Adam and my kitty cats. But I’d like to see my mom.

The family member I am closest to is…
…Adam and Aidan.

If I was really honest with my father I would tell him…
…a lot of things.

One thing I regret about my life is…
…not pursuing much more in college.

If I only had one more day to live I would…
…spend it with my family.

If I was really honest with my mother I would tell her…
…nothing she doesn’t already know, really.

One thing about me that nobody knows is…
…a secret.

I hope that someday in the future…
…I get the courage and commitment to chase and catch my dreams.

When I think about my family I feel…
…like I don’t see them nearly enough.

Something I’m really embarrassed about is…
…being so sensitive all the time.

One thing about me I never want to change is…
…my loyalty.

One thing I feel really proud of is…
…Aidan.

Blogsville has helped me to…
…meet loads of new people and friends.

One thing I like about blogsville is…
…reading about all sorts of people’s lives.

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Friday 5

FRIDAY FIVE (6): Rock Star Treatment

What instructions do you have for your chauffeur this weekend?
“Take me to Target if needed. Also, if I feel inclined to go to the Acousti-kirtan, I’d like a ride to and from that event, please. Oh, and a trip to the nail salon would be very nice. I need a mani/pedi.”

What instructions do you have for your personal chef this weekend?
“No instructions yet. Perhaps a sushi run, though. We’ll see.”

What instructions do you have for your errand-boy (or errand-girl) this weekend?
“Go to Molly’s and pick up some cupcakes for me, please. Make sure you pick up one for yourself and some for the other weekend helpers. Make sure I workout BEFORE I indulge in any cupcakes.”

What instructions do you have for your maid this weekend?
“Make sure Aidan didn’t leave any wild LEGOs on the floor. Keep the kitchen and living room clean. Do my laundry. Keep the litter boxes clean and smelling decent.”

You don’t have a personal handyman, so I’m lending you mine. What three tasks would you like him to tackle this weekend?
“Change all the blown out lightbulbs. Fix the holes in the doors put there by Adam’s former roommate. Help us with our couch.”

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Things I…

Things I Need To Do

    Finish Batch Two of undergraduate program sheets for Loyola by tomorrow evening
    Pay rent
    Get back on my workout schedule
    More yoga
    Write fiction for the joy of it instead of with the goal of publication
    Save more money more quickly
    Get my license renewed
    Eat more berries
    Eat more raw food
    Eat less sugar
    Give up fast food for at least a month
    Be more patient with Aidan
    Be more patient with Adam
    Be more patient with myself
    Pay off my credit cards
    Be more gracious

Things I Want To Do

    Get a manicure/pedicure
    Buy a djembe
    Read life blogs of random people
    Read random tumblr blogs
    Eat Whatchamacallit bars
    Eat lemon cookies
    Eat Doritos
    Eat sushi
    Watch STICK IT
    Get more followers on my blogs
    Take more pictures
    Cuddle with the cats more often
    Go to the library
    Go to an all-inclusive resort on a tropical beach

Things I Needed To Do and Handled LIKE A BOSS

    Cleaned my room
    Got eyes examined and new glasses ordered
    Booked hotel room for MuseCon
    Purchased registration for MuseCon
    Ordered my Photopass CD with five days left of my deadline

Time is going too quickly. I feel like I spend most of my time at work. I’m always cold. It can’t get hot enough for me outside, and I still feel chilled even when it’s 85+ degrees. It’s summer! I’m supposed to be happy, but all I keep thinking about is how quickly summer is slipping away. Before I know it, Aidan will be back in Ohio. Major suckage. And to make matters worse, it’ll be fourth quarter at work. Back to working 12 hour days every day instead of just one or two days a week. Back to increasingly colder and more bitter temps. Back to snow and ice and blizzards. I mean, once the December holidays are over, the rest of winter is freaking pointless and can suck it as far as I’m concerned. And six month winters can really piss off.

OK, to snap out of this, I will post some things I am looking forward to even though I don’t want them to come too quickly.

Things I Am Looking Forward To

    MuseCon (a whole weekend with s00j!)
    Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows pt. 2
    Weekends
    Paydays
    My most recent book orders arriving
    My new glasses
    My Photopass CD

That’s enough procrastinating now. I must finish this program sheet. Then it’s already bedtime. Night.

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Sunday Stealing (5)

SUNDAY STEALING: The Faceless Fourth of July Meme

1. Last movie you saw in a theater?
I think Alice in Wonderland. I don’t make it to the theater all that often.

2. What book are you reading?
I’m re-reading Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.

3. Favorite board game?
I like Scattegories and Taboo.

4. Favorite magazine?
I don’t really have one.

5. Favorite smells?
Bacon, clean babies, lilacs

6. Favorite sounds?
Good music. Aidan laughing.

7. Worst feeling in the world?
Feeling helpless and hopeless.

8. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up?
“I want to go back to sleep.”

9. Favorite fast food place?
McDonald’s. It’s horrible for me, but so tasty. Guilty pleasure for sure.

10. What’s under your bed?
Blankets, boxes, roller skates.

11. Finish this statement. “If I had lot of money I’d….?
Define “a lot”. Then we can talk.

12. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
I still sleep with this guy I got when I was one-year old.
Pandernoodle

13. Storms – cool or scary?
Both.

14. Favorite drink?
Kool-Aid. 🙂

15. Finish this statement, “If I had the time I would….”?
Work less, play more.

16. If you had to dye your hair another color, what would be your choice?
N/A

17. Favorite place to relax?
At home, on my couch.

18. Name all the different cities/towns you’ve lived in?
Cleveland, Columbus, Westerville, Pataskala, Chicago

19. Favorite sports to watch?
Gymnastics

20. Would you like to be born as yourself again?
Sure, if I could remember all the stuff I’ve learned so far and apply it accordingly.

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Stream of Conscious Rambling (TL;DR)

The weather in Chicago has been slowly, slowly eking toward summer. Today was the first really hot day since the Solstice, and now it’s raining, so I wonder if the heatwave will last beyond this weekend. It’s supposed to be 92 tomorrow, but I’ll be spending my entire day and at least part of the evening bogged down in the office, so it’s not like I’ll experience any of it.

Adam had surgery on Tuesday. Turns out that his sinuses were in pretty bad shape. We knew that, but really, not the extent of it. It’s a wonder he could breathe at all. He is recovering OK, though. It’s not his nose that’s hurting, even. It’s the rest of him. I took off work the past three days to make sure he and Aidan were OK. We were in the hospital for more than 13 hours Tuesday. Adam made his way home on Wednesday but he had slept so badly in the hospital that he slept all day and all night. Today he tried to get back to normal, but he’s still getting dizzy and tired. If he’s getting the dizzy spells tomorrow, I may stay home with him again.

To be honest, I’m feeling a bit down right now. It’s probably because Disney World has passed, so I have nothing really big to look forward to (except Harry Potter, but that’s the last one so there’s that), and Musecon, but that’s not til almost the end of summer, and I don’t want summer to end for many reasons, the biggest of which is that the end of summer means Aidan goes back to Columbus. I HATE THAT. So much. And I’ve used up all my time off at work so if I want to take any time off the rest of the year, it has to be unpaid. That’s actually not a problem for me, I don’t mind taking unpaid days…but I can see them denying it to me just because. And sadly, this job’s burnout rate is so high for me that I’ll NEED time off just when I can’t take it even if I am willing to take unpaid days.

Definitely needing to make changes in my life and already trying to take steps to do so. But so much of it is dependent on OTHER PEOPLE’S whims and that frustrates the hell out of me. Also, my hair feels like hay it’s so dry, and I’m not sure what to do about that, so it’s going to be braids until further notice. I miss my yoga practice–doing it at home with a DVD just isn’t the same. Plus Crookshanks insists on getting right in my way every single time. I don’t have time to write, and when I do manage to find time, I stare at the screen completely blanked out. It sucks.

Yesterday, one of my aunts passed away. She had been sick for a very, very long time. I’m glad she is no longer suffering, but it’s always sad when someone leaves the earth and their voice is silenced forever. I actually had a really good conversation about this with the part-time proofreader at work last week. Life, death, the other side, eternity, etc. He told me I was too young to be worrying about that stuff, but ever since I learned about Heaven and Hell, I kind of obsess about it. Especially with my spiritual beliefs being all over the place. But I know my aunt’s better now, and she’s no longer in pain.

I doubt we make it to Cleveland for the services. For one thing, getting time off from work at this point is like pulling teeth, Adam’s in no condition to be in a car for 6+ hours one way, it costs more than $1000 for the three of us to fly, and Amtrak is plain ole inconvenient. Greyhound is not even an option for us.

Meh. Today is just one of those days for me, I guess. Even though I had sushi.

Anyway….

Wow, major hailstorm just happened. Usually that stuff scares me, but a.) I have to be brave for Aidan and b.) It mirrors how I’m feeling right now, so I didn’t mind it.

Whatever.

I’m going to finish this off with the W.T.F. Meme. Just because.

This Thursday comes with a disclaimer

1.) These days almost everything comes with a disclaimer. Sometimes the disclaimer on TV commercials is longer than the description of the product itself. If you came with your own personal disclaimer, what would it say?
This girl is very sensitive. Tread carefully. She’s also whimsical, a bit of a dreamer, and kind of spiteful. She is also very kind and she likes to spoil her family with gifts. She rushes a lot and hates when slow people are in her way. She hates when people interrupt her or treats her like she’s stupid, so DON’T EFFING DO THAT.

2.) You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?

3.) Last week the Federal Drug Administration approved new packaging for cigarette packs that it hopes will discourage people from smoking. Some of the labels are very graphic. Do you think this is going too far or do you think the FDA is doing a good thing by making these labels?
Doesn’t concern me, I don’t smoke.

4.) Many people I’ve known have lost their TV remotes only to find them later in their freezers or refrigerators. Where is the weirdest place you’ve left your TV remote?
LOL. I find ours on the floor or in between couch cushions. The kitchen table is a common spot as well.

5.) What is something you do when you’re sad/depressed that really cheers you up (or at least helps bring you somewhat out of your funk)?
Looking at my old pictures. I try not to buy stuff, because that thrill lasts until exactly five minutes after new said item has been acquired. Unless it’s a book. That thrill lasts until the book is read. Hmm, maybe I should look at some pictures now….

6.) If I asked your past romantic partners if you were emotionally open, what would they say about you?
They’d say I was TOO open probably.

7.) Sonic Drive-In has created a bunch of theme hot dogs for the summer (including a Chicago Dog, an All-American Dog, Baja Dog, New York Dog, and Chili Cheese Coney). With the Fourth of July coming up, surely many people will be eating hot dogs. What toppings do you eat on top of your hot dog?
I like ketchup and cheese. I don’t care if the Chicago laws say no ketchup on hotdogs. Hmph.

8.) If Love Potion #9 is an elixir for love, what is your potion for moving on and dating again after a bad breakup?
Chocolate. Lots of chocolate. I guess?

9.) You have been given the opportunity to create a TV show of your own design — any genre, any demographic, limitless budget. What is it called and what’s the premise?
Remember how I said I’ve been blanking on writing? That pretty much goes for anything creative. So I have not one clue about this one.

10.) Last week a 14-year-old female Chinese Crested and Chihuahua mix named Yoda won the 2011 World’s Ugliest Dog Contest. Do you think she’s really the world’s ugliest dog or do you find some cuteness in her?
She’s OK.

Time for a bath, a cupcake, and some reading of Harry Potter. G’night.

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