loving these days.

October Rainbow

“…positivity is not about being soft, it’s about being smart. you suckers.”–donnie wahlberg

This quote:

If not me, who?
If not now, when?

Seriously, though. Why do I procrastinate so much? I need to keep this quote in the forefront of my mind. Carpe Diem. Seize the day. Make it count. And all that stuff. I also need to actually FOLLOW it. You should see the things that go through my mind at night. Then the daylight comes and I’m like ZzzZzzZZZzzZZ.

But this week will be the week to change things. They’re doing construction in the neighborhood again, which means pounding and banging for eight hours, starting at 8 or 9am. Which I think should be against the law. Hammers should NEVER be allowed out before 10am. But that’ll keep me from sleeping all day and being up all night… MAYBE. :)

These sweaters from Old Navy:

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They’re so cute and soft and fun to wear! I love them both with skinny jeans, boots, and a denim jacket.

This perfume from Gap:

gapstay It smells really light and fresh, like I stepped right out of the shower. I also like their perfume called “Close.” I’m very sensitive to scent, and some perfumes are just too much. Like, I know it’s supposed to be the rich person’s scent and all, but I cannot do perfumes like Chanel No. 5 or anything that smells close to that. And most of the celebrity-endorsed scents just do not work well with my nose. I’m also not a huge fan of the staple scents like CKOne or things like that. Give me light, floral or musky, and clean and fresh.

My tan “Queen” boots from


They sometimes have three colors: black, dark brown, and the aforementioned tan. (Right now, they only have the black ones in stock.) I happen to own all three colors because I love this style of boot so much. But when I got the tan ones, I really wondered when the hell I’d wear them because I wasn’t used to such light colored boots. But they’ve been a godsend this autumn, going with everything and looking great! I’ll wear the black ones and the dark brown ones later in the season and in the winter, but the tan ones are awesome for the fall.

The other colors:

black brown

My Bongo messenger bag:

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I got it 50% off, and yes, it’s faux leather but I don’t care it’s sooo cute and autumny and roomy. I can fit my wallet, camera, phone, a notebook, my iPad, and a bottle of water in the thing. I love that.

Other things I love…..

The massive amount of books I’ve been buying lately. I bought a bunch of books when we were in Ohio and had stopped in a Barnes & Noble. Most of them were for my mom, but I got some for myself as well. (I also broke down and bought the dang membership because I spend enough there anyway, and with all the discounts I got that day, the membership ended up costing me $5.)Last week, we went to Half-Price Books where I went crazy in the clearance section for both books and CDs. I left with two bags bursting with stuff for under $30, including some Gossip Girl novels, which are SUCH a guilty pleasure. I don’t know about you all, but I feel so much for the Blair in the books. I think she is my favorite. Monday, Adam and I went to Anderson’s Bookshop (best bookstore EVER) and I got two new books. So I have a load of books to read and they’re all stacked by my bed waiting for me to happily devour them.

How cute Adam looks in the fall. :) Now that the weather is cooling down, he’s stopped being quite as cranky. He loves the fall and all the pumpkin stuff, and the fall colors look really good on him.

What are YOU loving these days?


30 week blog challenge – week 6: favorite songs

Ha. After doing the epic music confession post the other day, I find out that this week’s blog challenge is to talk about our favorite songs. OF COURSE it is!

Random Wednesday Night

I’ll start with my absolute favorite song forever and ever amen, this blog’s namesake. Anywhere Is by Enya. The funny thing is that I love it so much, but I don’t allow myself to listen to it all the time. So it’s an extra special rare treat to hear it.

I have a list of songs that are my all time favorites. Songs that are ALWAYS welcome to pop into my ears if I’m playing the playlist on shuffle. Songs that never fail to make me smile or bring up some good memory or make me want to dance.

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This is some of my Eleventified™ playlist. Some of the songs are from long, long ago, and some of them are from as recently as a few months ago. Funnily enough, as with Anywhere Is, I don’t play this playlist often. I think I’m scared of getting tired of these songs that I love so much, and I want to keep it a treat to hear them. Is that weird? Yeah, it’s probably weird.

What are your favorite songs?

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i confess part 3 {the music edition}

Concert! :)

i confess… sometimes i listen to disney world music just to get myself whipped all up in a frenzy. i’ve been to disney world twice this year and this music always makes me want to go right back.

i confess… i also dance to disney parade music. yes, i bought the actual CDs and i put them on and dance to them. i am so cool.


i confess… i listen to yanni and i like it. in fact, i also like kenny g. what?

i confess… my father used to play the blues all the time when he’d drive us around. i’d pretend i hated it but i secretly liked some of it. except for the guy who used to snort. he was disgusting. i think it was bobby blue bland who did that. gross.

i confess… i stole my father’s george michael tape, his karyn white tape, and his david sanborn tape. my sister stole his bobby blue bland and bb king tapes. she embraced the blues a lot earlier than i did. i fought it for a long time.

don’t nobody get outta here without sangin’ the blues–adventures in babysitting

i confess… that adam and i have been listening to a lot of country music lately. we like to count how many of them aren’t about the following things: beer, small towns, creeks/rivers, and/or cheating. we could totally make a drinking game out of this.

i confess… even though i tell myself i’m not going to, every time i go to half-price books, i end up checking out the 50¢ cd section. because honestly, if i pick up a CD for 50¢, and it has ONE good song on it, that’s still an entire CD that’s cheaper than anything i can get on itunes! and last night was a gold mine. they had mariah carey and britney spears and the beastie boys and the twin peaks soundtrack and some maxi singles that i never even knew existed. i was so excited to get mariah’s first album on CD. because of course i had it when it was new and popular… but it was ON TAPE. now i can listen to it in my iPod or on my computer. yay.

i confess… yes, i still like to buy CDs. i just got n*sync’s greatest hits from best buy the other day for $5. i know everything’s going digital and CDs are being phased out. the poor CD section at best buy is only an aisle and a half now, and there are a lot of “bargain” CDs. but i still like to open the case and flip through the liner notes and put the disc into my computer’s disc drive and import the songs into my iTunes, and then onto my iPod. and new CDs smell almost as good as new books or binders with PVC in them. i know, it’s weird.

Half Price Books CD Haul. :)

i confess… even though i still buy CDs, i do love music downloads. i have a monthly subscription to emusic, i regularly buy music from iTunes, and i am always checking out whatever free downloads are offered, usually from new artists. (amazon, itunes, and all have loads of free downloads that are totally legit and some of it is really great stuff.) i used to get all of them before i discovered the nifty “preview” button. i love how convenient downloads are. it’s like when i used to be able to buy a single instead of an entire CD, in case the CD sucked (and back then, they were way more than 50¢ let me tell ya–some of them are STILL nearly $20. what?)

i confess… one of my favorite things about a new year is wondering what new music i’m going to hear and discover. and what old favorites i’m going to rediscover from my vaults. like this mariah carey CD. i’d forgotten how much i used to love “vanishing” and “it’s all in your mind.”

i confess… i adore this gif of the president listening to music. it makes me smile. i wonder what he’s jamming to? i find myself bobbing my head and smiling just like he does when something i like comes on.


i confess… shazam and google. a heavenly combination when you hear a song you like but have no idea what it is? shazam will listen and tag it for you. or you can type lyrics into google and more than likely a youtube video will come up. genius.

i confess… i used to segregate music pretty good in my life. when i was little, i listened strictly to kids’ records until i fell in love with michael jackson. then it was mostly him (with a little bit of prince, and lionel richie thrown in). let’s be honest. i mostly listened to r&b when i was younger and would not, could not stray from that. when i got to intermediate school (like middle school but only grades 7 and 8), i listened to keith sweat, guy, dana dane, mc lyte, pebbles, babyface, etc. i would not listen to white people sing (unless it was george michael apparently). i just refused. i even watched the video for “please don’t go girl” and predicted that “those white boys wouldn’t go anywhere.”


I FELL IN LOVE WITH NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK. i mean, obsessed head over heels wallpaper the walls buy all the things TAKE ALL MY MONEY AND MY MOTHER’S MONEY TOO PLEASE in love with them.

there are pictures. of me. covered in nkotb gear. buttons. sweatshirt. watch. earrings. i was a hot mess.

16 year old me
with my favorite music people
on the wall behind me
{notice pandernoodle?}

and because i had to watch or listen to the “white” stations to hear them, i started listening to other music by other artists. i remember hearing the guitars in an amy grant song and feeling like i was betraying myself or something. AMY GRANT you guys. also, music was starting to really cross over. white kids were listening to envogue and bobby brown and mc hammer. it was starting to be ok to listen to music outside of the color lines. oprah even did a special on it. i still have it on tape. eventually, i started to get over the musical segregation rules i’d put upon myself (or maybe society thrust them upon me?), but things really changed for me when i got to college and saw black kids listening to stone temple pilots and n.i.n., and sincerely enjoying it with no shame. and that’s when i finally embraced my own musical leanings full heartedly.


i confess… i will listen to anything once. my music collection is insane. look in my iPod and you’ll find kirtan, move scores, musicals, r&b, pop, country, metal, pagan, jesus music, folk, alternative, adult contemporary, hip-hop, dance, electronica, trance, house, celtic, traditional chinese, meditation, new age, chants. there’s something for every mood, and i’m always open to new stuff.

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my top 25 played

Music is powerful. For me, it’s more about the beat, melodies, the vocals, and the way it makes me feel rather than the lyrics. But I like music, and I am so glad I live in a world where there is so much to listen to, and so much to discover.


30 week blog challenge – week 5: favorite quote

This week’s blog challenge is to share my favorite quote with you. I have a lot of them, but there is one that sticks out in my mind:

“A room without books is like a body without a soul”—Cicero

Honestly, I live by this quote. Every room in this apartment has books. There are piles of books next to my bed, and bookcases in the bathroom. I love to read. I can’t get enough. It’s my default comfort zone. Like, when someone tells me they don’t like to read, I just don’t get it. It’s incomprehensible. But when I think about how I’d rather read than watch TV, I kind of get it, because there are people who LOVE TV whereas I can take it or leave it. I mean, I enjoy TV when it’s there, but it’s not my first choice for entertainment. I’d rather read. Different strokes. But at any rate, there needs to be a book close to me or I don’t feel right. It’s weird.

Another quote I like is this one:

“In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.”— Martin Luther King Jr.

I really felt this one when I was going through my divorce from Chris. I saw people draw their lines and pick their sides, and I was often left in the dust. But there were some people who supported me through the whole thing. And that’s how I learned who my true friends were. I tell everyone who is going through a divorce or separation that they’ll learn who is truly there for them when times get hard.

“It is never too late to be what you might have been.”—George Eliot

At the ripe old age of 38, I feel like a lot of my dreams are silly and need to be shelved. Or they’re just unrealistic. And that’s OK. Not everyone can be a famous movie star. But I can still be a New York Times bestselling author someday. I just need to stop being scared and go for it.

“Kirtan is non-denominational, the Universal language of Spirit, the song of the Soul.”—New World Kirtan

Incredible was the day I realized that I got that same feeling of freedom, love, and happiness from singing kirtan that I did when singing certain worship songs in church. There are certain advocates that say yoga and kirtan is evil, from the devil, it’s “idol worship” and that the chanting is a bunch of gibberish. How close minded can someone get? And I won’t even go into how insulting it is that they call Sanskrit “gibberish”–it’s a legit language, asshats.

I remember the first time I went to kirtan, I was like “what the f—?” but then I couldn’t get the chants out of my head. And I started to seek them out. And I loved them. And before anyone gets all weirded out, please know that the first time I went to Catholic church, I was also like “what the f—?” …and the same when I went to temple. Funnily, I wasn’t like that the first time I attended a Lunasaugh ritual, but honestly, I am too darn lazy to be pagan.

My spiritual journey has been quite a ride, and I haven’t gone much into it on my blog, because I don’t fully understand it myself. I always put up a bit of resistance when deep down, I know something is going to pierce my soul in a good way. But I’ll tell you this. I can chant Jaya Jagatambe, or sing “Famous One”, or do a yoga practice to the Four Directions, and still feel that same soul shaking, party rocking good time. And that opens my heart more than any stern lecture from any pastor can.

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It’s so hard to believe that it’s already October, even though the leaves have been slowly changing, some of the days are less mild than others, and pumpkin everything is showing up at all stores. I am not a fan of pumpkin myself, but Adam loves the stuff.

Morton Arboretum Autumn 2012

October is traditionally a hard month for me… but the last few Octobers have been so busy that I haven’t had time to really get sad. There were all the years I was working at Schawk for fourth quarter, and last year I had my video review and ton to attend, plus other teacher training stuff to deal with, so I was pretty busy last year as well. This year, October is going to be pretty mellow. OH WAIT, IT TOTALLY WON’T.

I have freelance gigs, travel plans, workshops I want to attend, and a massage to enjoy. I have to make my annual trek out to Morton Arboretum for pictures and happiness and a visit to my favorite tree. I’ve got to start preliminary holiday shopping plans. And I need to watch The Little Mermaid because I just got the Blu-ray today.

I also wore this today:

dress: free people
jacket: kohl’s
leggings: ragstock
sandals: earth origins

I promise this showing off my outfit stuff won’t be a regular thing. I am so not a fashionista, and this is not a fashion blog by any means. I don’t know how to do all those cute poses that the fashion bloggers do. But I had to show off this outfit because I’m so proud of myself for putting it together and I think it’s kinda cute and I got compliments on it.

Jury Duty

September wasn’t too busy for me. I worked a lot, visited my mom in Ohio, picked up the Aladdin and Jasmine Designer Fairy Tale dolls at The Disney Store, did a day of jury duty (did you know you get certificates if you actually serve on a jury?), and shopped. A LOT.

It was a good month, though, but September always goes too quickly. Time really does fly.

Before I sign off, I thought I’d leave you with the evidence of this deliciousness I had yesterday:



Till next time.

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